SOMEWHERE ELSE

2009-09-08T16:06:00.002+08:00

I'VE MOVE TO SOMEWHERE BETTER.

http://randomstorytotell.blogspot.com

Friends, RELINK me.
Strangers, VISIT me.

:D Moving on is the key thing, and i am.

2009-09-08T00:47:00.001+08:00

0903, i love you all!!

Life is like moving perfectly and i know it will.
God, thank you!

2009-09-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

I wanna write a new song, but i failed since yesterday.
And at the same time there is a song in my head.
But i just can't let it out.
I tried so many times, but it's a big F.
I don't know why either.
Oh well, let's dig those old songs and get back to singing.

IF I COULD, I'VE ASK. < New song title.

2009-09-05T20:35:00.002+08:00

Officially, i'm date-able.
SP ended and 6 weeks of holiday began yesterday.
Still... No update. :D

2009-09-05T02:04:00.002+08:00

Swensens with my family equals to FULL stomach! LOL!

:D

2009-09-04T00:43:00.001+08:00

Oh, THANKS !
The blog is freaking refreshing!
You know what, i've told you we're friends and you need to move on.
Guess what, you're not.
You insisted in staying in the world that i think it's full of crap.
3 years isn't the matter boy.
It's the matter of what you did 3 years ago and what happened after that.
Seriously, you should just cut the bullshits and stay away from my life.

Cause, i realise that i'm adapting life without you being my boyfriend.
I have my family to make me happy.
I have my mrM to make me happy.
I have my friends to make me happy.
So, see how much i've move on?!
And i think i don't need those craps from you to make me feel guilty and annoyed and destroy everything that i'm going through now!
Enough is enough!
I SAID IT - ENOUGH IS ENOUGH!

By all means, if you wanna do like what you text me.
Which is to be standing in front of my doorstep..
By all means, no one is going to stop you!
But just be prepared...
I'm no longer that soft hearted girl you know!
I may have lost everything to you, but i still have my pride and my life!
And your craps won't work this time round.
OKAY?!

Sorry, i've told you it's just friends before, but you make me changed my mind.
What about a total strangers now?!
=.= '

LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME LEAD MY LIFE ON MY OWN!

2009-08-29T22:50:00.002+08:00

I LOVE MY FAMILY. Thanks mama, ayah, along, abang, adik and bibik.

They surprised me with an ice-cream cake from swensens today (though my birthday is like tomorrow). It really makes my day. While eating the super delicious cake, i decided to tell them what had recently happen in my life. As usual, tears starts to stream down.

Dad and Mum gave me a couple of advice that makes me realise that i'm not at any wrong position. Neither is he. They told me that maybe god just want us to be this way. There's always the good thing behind a bad thing -dad said. I uphold to his words.

What touches me the most is .. My maid cried with me when she saw me crying. I love her to the bits. I love her. She's part of me now. :D

Oh, i must tell you this!

THE WHOLE FAMILY gave me one present that i'm freaking happy about! LOL!
And it's itouch 2nd generation. OMG! I was like... is this real or is this fake?! HAHAHA.
But, hey it is real. :D

THANKS everyone. Thanks once again.
Again, a birthday that super meaningful to me despite of the sadness i'm in.

I LOVE YOU ALL!

2009-08-28T15:21:00.000+08:00

Having fever is seriously uncool.

Oh, i got work to do.
But i can't continue it today.
-.-
My body is just not responding to it.
I will do it tomorrow then.

God, please help me. Let me do this. Please.

2009-08-27T18:25:00.002+08:00

Currently in school, just ended my Game Concept Project (GCP). Waiting for dad now.
Alone.

Today i had a rough day. A very veyr rough day.
Cried like nobody's business today.
I cried eveyrthing out to Bestea (Abid) and also Arie Dear.
It all happen after i received a message from SW.
His message is fucking irritating -Frankly.
Thinking of it just makes me wanna cry out loud again.
Then after that, another incoming call from SY.
After that, another message from CTMY.
I just dont know why i felt that the questions is making me super frustrated and disappointed.
It's like there's a 20kg stone on top of my head.
I mean, my head was freaking heavy all the way today that i couldn't really concentrate on my work.
Is this the way he fullfill his promise?
Why can't he understand?!
Call me anything you want people, anything.
Selfish? Self-centered? Annoying? Ungrateful?
But ultimately, i'm suffering.
Does you people knows that?
DO YOU?!
You think asking him a break up is making me happy?!
Oh, you're wrong people.
If he thinks he have to start adapting a life without me? So am i.
I have to adapt a life without him.
Blame me?!
My fault.
Oh well. If that's what make you people happy, then let it be.
Whatever the reasons you people have for the break up, it's your own interpretation!
Okay?! Cause only me knows the real reason to it.
ONLY ME!
Hey, hello. It's not easy being me.
Who is pleasing EVERYONE ELSE AND FORGETS TO PLEASE MYSELF?!
No, not blaming him.
But just tell me, is it fair?!
Is it fair for me??? IS IT?! TELL ME NOW?!
I please my parents -by telling lies to him.
I please him -by telling lies to my parents.
So who's pleasing me?
Hey you think it's fun swimming in a pool of lies? YOU THINK SO?!
Ya, weak -Maybe that's the right word.
But the battlefield has to end.
Enough is enough for me.
So people, i think it's enough.
Being me was never easy. OKAY?!
Thanks. Im sorry.

2009-08-26T11:52:00.002+08:00

I FELT _______!

2009-08-24T22:22:00.002+08:00

IF ONLY I CAN DELETE SOME PARTS OF MY LIFE THAT'S TAKING SPACES IN ME.

2009-08-19T16:45:00.004+08:00

Hello babyloves.

I'm freaking tired now.

Anyway, please take this survey if you happen to be in here. (:
It's for my end of semester project. Thanks.

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=3ckaTlPvuNEGsXHfpfJcYw_3d_3d

2009-08-19T16:45:00.003+08:00

PIXEL ART = FUN and at the same time TIRING.

The hair is supposingly nice, and it turn out like this. OMG!
Anyway, original picture (traditional art) is with me and the reference is from google.
:D

2009-08-18T15:02:00.002+08:00

Hello babyloves. (:

First thing first, studio project has started. Few words to describe -Tiring, irritating and wonderful.
Tiring because we have to stay in school for like hours 9am to 6pm.
Irritating because it's like freaking tiring.
Wonderful because i'm doing the work IN SCHOOL and doing character designs plus research.
I think i'm doing a little. But, whatever. HAHA! I'm doing work for my group okay! I am.
Okay, enough.

WOOHOO!
Another outing with my usual peeps (Zac, Ke Yang, Daniel, Abid, Wee Theng, Candace and Arie). It's an early birthday celebration for me and Arie. Went to seoul garden right after Studio Project.

Everyone ate like freaking a lot! And, guess what we laugh a lot too. I love it.
Thanks again all!

(: See what i mean when i say, i'm blessed. HAHA.
People around me accept me for who i am not what i am. And that's the kind of friend i'm looking for. Thanks DG0903. :D

I better get going. Bye!! <3

2009-08-14T02:03:00.003+08:00

Hello.

It's 0203. I just finished my super rough 2d GAME character and environment design.

Oh, i love yesterday.
Not the morning part, but the afternoon.
A very cool outing, even though i attended like half of the outing only. HAHA.
Movie was fun! (:

And and, buffet next Tuesday* as they planned to celebrate an early birthday for me as my birthday falls on the fasting month. I can't wait. :D ! I'm so excited! And, i feel that... i'm pampered. LOL!

You know, i felt like i'm being pampered everywhere i go.
By my family, Boyf, my LLSSHH girlf and even my DG0903.
I'm so blessed.
I swear i love them.

MUACKS!!!

Photoshoot outing with Fateha, Ayu and Fateha's friend tomorrow. Can't wait too. :D

2009-08-10T22:25:00.002+08:00

The movie is HILARIOUS, AWESOME, EXCITING and ADVENTUROUS.

I love it.
Watched the 3D.
Was super nice!
The spectacle is cool.
I was thinking that i was allowed to bring it back home, but i was told to returned it. Sad.
But never mind.
I enjoyed the movie okay~~!

Oh, currently on a mission -going to save $2 per day.
:D !

BYEBYE loves.

2009-08-09T15:42:00.002+08:00

Baked pizza today.

Sister was teaching me and i was like "MUST i learn?"
Was super lazy okay.
I mean it's SUNDAY babyloves.
It's SUNDAY!
Haha. But i end up learning it.
Great learning though.

Played couple of games in facebook.
Like Fish a Fish, Farmville, Country Story and Barn Buddy.
A little of pet society and i'm off to watch my Anime.
Currently watching Skip Beat Episode 10.
Sloowww i know.
Haha.

Now, planning to SLEEP before the parade start.

8.22pm , everyone recite the pledge together okay?!

SINGAPORE IDOL today. :D :D !

Bye.

HAPPY 44th SINGAPORE! I LOVE YOU.
Singapore is my homeland and always will be.
I love you Singapore.
To me you're the greatest and the best.
Once, my dad told me.. "Let's stay in Malaysia , Johor Bahru."
I cried out loud and told dad.. "No, i don't want to be there."
Cause deep in my heart, Singapore stays.
Nothing is better than Singapore to me.
Singapore is the place i always want to be.
I LOVE YOU!

2009-08-08T17:28:00.002+08:00

Spent quality time with sisters today.
I love it.
Finally, i've bought my DESFUN assignment's tools -Markers.
Initially, i was thinking of using copic marker as suggested by Bruno.
Apparently, when i try using it (Bruno's) i end up destroying the piece.
Blurrr!
So i bought like ALL brand markers that are good to me and i wil try them on.
It's true being a designer is EXPENSIVE!
Haha.

Might be watching UP later.
Double happiness.
HAHA!

:D

Anyway, i've another blog which is a combined-blog of ME, AYU AND FATEHA.
Here's the link ,

http://the-beradiks.blogspot.com

Do visit.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATEHA!
Dah 18. Aku jek tengah tunggu ni. Haha.

2009-08-05T13:06:00.002+08:00

Hello babyloves.

I'm done with the so called VAS monopoly presentation.
I felt good about it. However, my lecturers are not really happy with the way everything's done.
Oh well, maybe it's that they are expecting higher than what we are doing.
A little demoralised, but thinking of it.. it's not the way.
I mean, hey, of course our work can't be like perfect for at the very first time.
Just like Candace said, "If we're doing everything perfect for the first time, we are not called students."
And just like Miss Lum and Mr Soren said, "Treat it as a learning journey."
And just like how i want to believe, "If my is bad, there's someone else that's worse."
Okay, i'm nagging like non-stop.
Bare with me my loves, i'm like trying to calm myself down.
Let me put all those negative to a positive.
Alright? Yeah. That's the way.

Okay, back to life. I've not been sleeping for 2 whole days straight. I'm very exhausted now. My body is telling me i need to STOP doing work -Right Now! And sleep -Right NOW! But somehow, the comments from my lecturers awaken me. Oh well, maybe i just felt that there's still room for improvement for our group member -Especially me. Ya, ST1 is like coming. Improvement, more hard work. Oh well, stop it, i'm talking about school now. Oh shyt! Haha. Okay, currently school projects are left with POGD and DESFUN game poster.

Anyway, anyhow, i still feel the sense of achievement.

Tomorrow please come faster so i can forget today.

2009-08-05T00:17:00.001+08:00

I'm tired. Very tired.

Monopoly is exhausting.
So is drawing.
Omg.

I feel that i will collapse anytime anywhere at this moment.

Oh god, help me please.

2009-08-03T20:54:00.001+08:00

Mosquito still bites me when i told them ..

"Mosquito don't disturb me please. I'm doing my assignment. Please mosquito."

.. and i end up with 6 mosquito bites.

Sad Sad.

2009-07-29T21:19:00.002+08:00

Hello babyloves.

Today's the best.
I love today so much.
VERY so much.
Hehe.

I ♥ boyf very much.
Dear came to meet me at westmall.
Bought sushi and green apple ice blended.
I was so hungry that i ate the sushi all by myself.
Well, at least not all.. but most of them.
Lepakss with him after that.

I ♥ my 0903.
Was laughing non stop during break time.
Random jokes were told.
Our ICE CURRY (a new version for ice kacang).
I felt so comfy.
For the first time in my life, i fit very comfortably in a class.
Lepakss with them, ate waffle and left the school with Mdm Khadijah.

:D BYE babyloves.

2009-07-28T22:00:00.002+08:00

22 : 00 !

Omg.
I'm exhausted.
Ngantoksss bangett.
Well, i'm waiting for boyf to go online.
And he just did now @ 22 : 07 .
Lame, i know.
-.- !

The best conversation i had today is with boyf. I just love his STRESS face.

"You're my M&M."

He took like 9848728473643873826436 hours to think of the meaning of the M&M. Haha. I gave him like banyakks clue and he still don't get it. See, how sloooowww my boyf is. LOL. Well, i love his stress face. Can't blame it. LOL.

Boyf,
Get the meaning now? LOL.

Love you M&M . :D
HAHA.

That's it for today readers.
Love ya all' ^^

2009-07-24T19:40:00.003+08:00

Babyloves,

I love you all. (:
Now, i shall refresh myself. I won't deject myself over my results.
I still have one more assignment to go to pass myself. And i know I CAN.
Yes, I CAN!
For my parents, siblings, boyf, bestie, 0903 and myself.
I CAN! I CAN! I CAN!

Thanks babyloves.

2009-07-22T22:58:00.005+08:00

Hey babyloves,

I'm so dejected.

I don't know why i'm so bitter.

Actually i do.

It's my results.

I know it's not the full results yet, but there's a humongous gap for me to fill.

Fear of not being able to do so is just playing in me.

My parents, "Don't think too much about it. Work harder from now on. It's your first year."

Elder sister, "Ask your lecturer where you go wrong. Improve on it."

Bestie said, "Giving up too soon and you'll never know there is hope."

Arie said, "Smile Hidah. I'll try to help you to pass. Don't worry."

Of course there's more that cheer me up when i was EMO just now.

Like Burn, Kak Sharin and Kak Atul.

Their support are needed.

Thanks everyone.

I love you.

I was very upset that i went home straight after school as boyf didn't replied me on time.

Cooked boyf porridge as he is sick.

Pass it to him.

And i tried to stop thinking of the failure in me, and i couldn't.
I went to sleep instead.

Still nothing was erased.

One word for today :

HEARTBROKEN..

..with myself.

2009-07-22T01:50:00.002+08:00

0151 . It's 0151 baby loves.

Have you been missing me? Good if you do, BOO if you don't. Okay, lame.. i know. Stop it! (: Okay, serious now.

Life in school have been a little slacky. It doesn't mean that we are free from assignments. Assignments for the semester are given.

Facebook game designing.

Board game designing.

Game poster designing.

Self-portrait of your friend (for me it'll be BURN).

Looks little but the work load for each assignment are fucking a lot. =.= !

Tired tired.

God help me.

2009-07-14T12:16:00.003+08:00

Hello babylovesss!

My day just started. Did a little DESFUND and i glued myself to the tb. Cartoons as usual. (: !

I want to go to borders and buy a book! And start reading. I just want to start reading, start reading. Oh never mind.

Yesterday was 3 different feelings for me. At the beginning of the day, i was rather ready-for-school mood. When i entered the lecture theatre, i felt very delighted. I was happy to see my classmates (eventhough there's some misunderstandings somewhere between some of them). Day was okay untill Jimmy told us to start on our assignment's 3 thumbnail. Which is technically idiotic cause my thumbnail was like DETAILED. I was trying to do what Lina show us earlier that day. Anyways, after that thumbnail drawing i was F tiring. Exhausted like hell.

After school, i went to accompany bestie (Abid) and Arie to hand in their assignments to Clyda. By that time, my energy is draining out. I was so extremely tired.

Then met boyf at westmall. And that was when i was strucked with anger. I don't bother to say why, but if a boyf demoralise my own confidence (and it's not the 1st time) i will definitely be angry. Of course. As i was F angry with him, i decided to cancel the coffee bean plan and went straight home. I only talk when he asked.

When i'm home, i was TIRED&ANGRY.. i lay down on my bed and instantly fell asleep. -.- !

LIYAN'S BIRTHDAY:

I ♥ that day. PICTURES were taken (all in FB).

The set up were really nice.

Finally, a decent day out with the girls. Miss them like LOOAADDSS.

A day filled with happiness and laughter. (:

2009-07-13T00:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY LI YAN! I ♥ you .

2009-07-06T21:03:00.004+08:00

Hey sexy loves.

I'm drained. Trust me, i am.
It's the first day of school and assignment's up.
Had drawing for 4 hours and it's killing.
I thought fabric drawing is fucking easy where it's actually DIFFICULT.
And the way i was taught to shade fabric is utterly different from how i was taught during secondary school.
Jimmy was like keep on teaching me the correct shading.
I was like, "Hmm, okay. Okay.." where actually, in my heart, "What the hell? Am i suppose to re-do?"
But, i ended up doing what he actually wants and he told me to PRACTICE!
:D

Let me see, as for the class, everything seems pretty normal and absolutely cool. :D
Miss this people a load! :D Serious.
However, some news just makes me gloomy.
One by one, leaving the class. It's just not the right way. I tried to tell , "Don't give up," But, it's somehow just don't make sense if i were to say it out as i ever thought of giving up. So, i just kept quiet and see one by one dropping out.

To those that's STAYING : Continue with the course aite? Afterall, there's nothing easy in life. :D
To those that's LEAVING: Well, you chose it. Make the right choice this time. And good luck. (: !

Okay that's school. :D !

OH! I finally got my god damn coffee bean's vanilla. Thanks boyf. (: !
I swear i was in heaven just now. HAHA. Slacked a while with him. Then off home.

AND.... suddenly at HOME...

I felt like DANCING! Freak me out lah! I mean, DANCING?! Haha.
But, i did dance. HAHA. And let me tell you, i'm freaking tired now. Just finished learning dancing from youtube. (: !

I have a list of things to do with me now. :D
I better get it going. (: !!!!!

TONIGHT:

DRAWING
&
POGD slides.

MONEY, MONEY!

2009-07-05T17:35:00.003+08:00

Today is slacking day for me. I think i've slack enough. So i've told myself that i will start those undone work tomorrow, right after school. Starting with.. Can't tell you. HAHA ! :D

Nothing much to talk about today anyway. Except that i woke up at 1 pm and fixed myself in front of the tb (tv). Watched shows like fairly oddparents, road runnershow, beauty and geeks and the showdown. And now, i'm here listening to love, sex and magic by ciara ft. justin timberlake. At the same time blogging. (:

Oh, i have to mention this -DRAG ME TO HELL is awesome. I love it.

Caught it in the cinema yesterday? Or i should say today? 2 in the morning show. And it ends at 4 am. HAHA! I counted the number of people in the cinema, and i proudly say.. there's only 19 human beings. Awesome!

I was upper excited when my sister told me that she's dragging me along to watch the movie. I was searching for someone to watch with me. Well, was thinking of boyf, but someone said it was a crappy movie so i don't want to waste his money. So, my search is over and i'm fully content that i finally managed to watch the movie.

FANTASTIC. THUMBS UP for DRAG ME TO HELL. (: !

Though the movie caught me into some "heart attack" incidents in the cinema, but i love it.

Can i watch it again darling? :D !

BYE SEXY LOVERS!

2009-07-04T17:01:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings.

I hate it when i try very hard to sleep, but i failed.
Slept at 1 am , woke up at 5 am. Seriously can't sleep. And it's idiotic.
So i decided to switch the tv on. Less than 5 minutes, i fell asleep again. -.- !

Today i had my badminton game with boyf. (: !
And now, my hand is pain. My wrist exactly.
Super tired. Then slack with boyf awhile -played big two in his iTOUCH.
Fucking retard lah the game i tell you, win one round.. the computer AI will make you lose so many rounds. =.= !
I swear and curse.
Boyf goes like:
"Angry right? Like CB right?"
Haha.
Then head home.

Reach home. I slept like a log. =.= !

2009-07-02T17:34:00.000+08:00

So, i've work striked off and i'm happy. :D

2009-07-01T15:29:00.002+08:00

One moment i feel i'm a group, another moment i feel i don't belong with the group.
If you understand what i'm saying. Which is pretty obvious -YOU DON'T!

2009-07-01T12:44:00.004+08:00

Picture taken from google. http://upload.wikimedia.org/wikipedia/en/2/28/Two-sided_Fahrenheit.jpg :D !

I feel like putting that pic, so i have it. WAHAHAHAHA! :D

My younger sister and myself had this conversation :

Younger Sister: Kak (sis) , if fahrenheit ever come to your school (NYP), how will you re-act?

Me: *rolls eyes* I will obviously jump around you nut!

Younger Sister: *Ignore me*

HAHA. Well, my answer is basically just to irritate her. :D !

This boy band here make their trip to IMM when they are in Singapore, how the hell will they end up in NYP, right?! =.=

Today received POGD's e-learning. Due tomorrow. Work, work.

I need coffee bean! COFFEE BEAN!!!!!!!!

I KNOW I'M BEING MESSY FOR TODAY'S UPDATE. so what?! wakakaka.

2009-06-30T13:06:00.004+08:00

Seriously, i hate e-learning.
Honestly, i miss school.
=.= !

Anyway, couple of emails received. So, here's the due dates (mainly for myself to keep track) :

~~Drawing ; Thurs by 12am.~~
~~Comm ; Thurs by 5pm.~~
~~Desfun ; Friday by the end of tutorial class.~~
VAS ; Next week class.
~~POGD ; Thurs by 6pm.~~
Color Theory ; not yet received.

I'm going to get serious work done now. No more playing. Serious. I swear.
-.- !

2009-06-28T20:27:00.002+08:00

Blah blah blah.

I hate to say this, but i miss my whole lot of friends.
It's been long since we sit and chat. You know.. Criticising lecturers and all sorts. LOL.
I miss the noisy my bestie makes. I miss his nonsense. Abid, it's you!
I miss the face from my darling when i did something 'wrong'. LOL. Arie, it's you!
I MISS DG0903.
Home base learning next week.. =.= !

I'm still figuring out how to log in to e-learning.
And still wondering how i will survive this home based learning. No, i can't be paranoid. BLURRRRRR!!!

2009-06-18T21:47:00.002+08:00

Boo!

I've been slacking for the past few days. Spending zillion hours with my family. (: ! Feel happy.
So, i have make it a deal to drop by school tomorrow and finish my pogd GUI designs. Guai. I need to be guai now.

Somehow today is a major catch up between me Kelvin, Udin and myself. We had our badminton date at 8am. Played 2 hours of the game plus catching up with each other's life, complaining of how tough our course(s) are. And many many more. Life is like sixteen/seventeen once again. Bahaha! So, breakfast with them and off home. I still owe udin 2 bucks de.

Tomorrow will be meeting my NYP dearies. Another bunch of lovelies. :D How can my day possibly be bad?!

Hao lah, i'm going off. Watching tv then sleep. :D !

BYE BABIES.

2009-06-12T23:52:00.002+08:00

Finally it's Friday. That marks the end of the week.
Nothing to be happy of actually. Nothing, absolute nothing.
Even with the 2 weeks holidays that's waiting for me.
With assignments holidays turn out to be something i hate.
Technically, i need to prepare myself a time table. =.=

Oh well, at least with a class like the one i'm in right now.. i feel a little better in any ways. DG0903, another group of people that marks a place in my heart after fucking irritating 8 weeks (struggling to complete every assigments on time, seeing one by one falling sick, getting stress, sleeping at the koufu table while the rest eating their lunch slooowwwllyyy, the tired faces, the dota eagerness, the nonsense, the dirty jokes and crappy talks.. basically everything) being together. HAHA! :D

Well dearies, try to enjoy and refresh life this 2 weeks. :D Love ya all!

Saturday is filled with kenduri. ):
Sunday is daddy's birthday. (: (: !

LOVE YA WORLD!

2009-06-07T15:30:00.002+08:00

Facebook is irritating. =.=

2009-06-05T11:18:00.002+08:00

FRIDAY, draggy.

As usual, as always..
I want holidays like right now. Everything suddenly seems like killing me. From drawing to POGD to COMM to VAS(which always did) to DESFUN to COLOR THEORY. Omg. So little module and yet.. stressing like nobody business. =.=

Okay, okay.

Currently i'm in school now.
SKETCHING! =.=

CAN SOMEONE JUST COME AND RESCUE ME?

2009-06-01T19:09:00.002+08:00

BOOHOO!

I'm now at Johor Bahru. Currently at my brother in law's auntie's hotel. :D !
Nice. How i wish this is my HOUSE! -.-

K i'm lame.
Doing POGD now actually.
Game objective.. Game objective..

=.=

2009-05-31T23:39:00.001+08:00

Okay, let me see...
Sunday is ending real soon. -.- !

I don't like it.
Urgh. Holidays is in 2 weeks time. It's like... long.

2009-05-26T15:49:00.002+08:00

I have a list of things-to-do pinned up on my noticeboard.
So far none of the work is strike off from the list. I'm just not in mood to get work done.
My fever came back last night.
Wait, let me count. It's week 6 this week isn't it?
I'm left with week 7 and week 8 and i'm off for my 2 weeks of off duty from school. Can't wait.
So many dues on week 7.
I'm crapping my weekends with assignment once again. -.- !

Friday is excursion, and my peeps are having another meeting at IMM. I want to go and meet them, but excursion? Idiot! =.= !

I better get going.
Some work on that list have to be strike off.

2009-05-25T18:36:00.002+08:00

So, it's Monday today and it's suppose to be Jimmy's class.
But i failed to attend, thanks to my throat condition and my slight fever feeling.
It's basically unbearable. My nights were disturbed, please.

Went to the doctor today and the doctor prescribed me with antibiotics, flu, fever and cough medicine. Homed after that, took above mentioned medicines and i slept all the way untill NOW!
Buay tahan. Sibei drowsy. -.- !

2009-05-22T20:29:00.002+08:00

So the week for school ended.
Should i smile or should i be like no feelings due to the endless assignments?
Oh well, there's three words -I DON'T CARE.
Cause whatever the feelings right now, nothing will change the endless assignments to end-right-now assignments. =.= !

Let me summarise the week.

Monday , 18 05 09 :

Lecture.
mrJK's class -Drawing(perspective).
After school, lunch with Arie, Abid and Wee Theng.
Next, Taka's art friend with them, but without Arie.
Then off home.
:D

Tuesday , 19 05 09 :

No class basically.
But, i met my group member for POGD to finish up the project -Abid, Anban, Shu Wen and Emily.
Then, went home.

Wednesday , 20 05 09 :

Major thingy for the day -POGD's exe 3 submission due and the project due.
mrJ's class was as usual, relaxing.
Then was given new assignment.
Off lunch with classmates.
Attended comm class.
Was as usual, hilarious.
Spamming mdmK is fun.
Then talk to mdmK about somethings.
Off to meet abid to accompany him for his lunch.
Then off to AMK hub with him.
Then woodlands.
Dinner with Abid and homed.
:D

Thursday , 21 05 09 :

Major thing for the day AVS. -.- !
mrS's class was ok, i guess.
new exercise for his class.
then off for lunch with my classmates.
attended desfund lecture.
and off homed.
-.- ! Was super tired.
At home chiong colour theory. o.0 !

Friday , 22 05 09 :

Let me elaborate about today, just today's. HAHA. :D

Morning tutorial is fun. Clyda's and her 'Dental Responsibility' HAHA!
Basically tutorial today is just to hand up the last 2 weeks assignments and that's it.
While the rest went for lunch, i stayed with Anban and Abid in the lab as they wants to complete their painting work.
After that pei them to smoke.
Anban soon left to meet his friend.
Me and Abid went for lunch then. :)
Next, attended colour theory module.
New assignment for it. And i'm happy cause my hours of work is accepted. :D
After that, pei best friend to smoke again.
Then went to Mcdonald to meet the rest.
Soon, half of them went home.
So it's left with me, best friend, Jasper dear dear, Chia Hao and Zac.
Here's the most hilarious part of the day.
Jasper dear dear was seriously full of nonsense. HAHA.
Hot fudge Sundae & Strawberry Sundae ( inside joke ).
Idiot, they make me technically will think twice to eat the Sundaes starting from that moment sia.
We seriously corrupted our mind. HAHA! Thanks to Jasper dear dear and his nonsense shit! HAHA. :D
I think this guys are just simply the jokers of my day.
Well, best friend is the joker of my EVERYday. HAHA.
Moved to library after our nonsense crapping session.
Everyone starts to worn out. HAHA.
Zac, CH and Jasper dear dear left for their CCA soon after.
Left me with best friend. Slacked then off home with him.
:D

I'm all done here. HAHA.
Currently, picnik is pissing me off. =.=

2009-05-18T20:43:00.002+08:00

A new week.
A new beginning.
A new goal.
A new style of working!

:D !

Insya'allah, this time round it will all work.

2009-05-17T19:21:00.002+08:00

So..

I broke down one more time today.
I'm not in the mood seriously.
Everything seems to be spinning real fast for me.
I hate the feelings, therefore i cried and yelled.
Anger overwhelmed me.
No, no, i should say..
A whirlpool of emotions strucked me.
I don't know when this will eventually end, but i'm trying my best to stay strong.
I've told myself i should be on my own speed.
I shouldn't compare myself with the others.
Yes, that's what i should do.

Thanks Abid and Arfian for the cheer-me-up session. I really appreciate that so much.

:D !

Things to clear tomorrow:
- Understand CT exe 3. MUST MUST.

2009-05-15T12:22:00.002+08:00

Haiz.

I don't even know where the stress starts.
Is it the day mrJ told me that i've failed my Exe 1?
If that so, i just can't accept failure (which is wrong).
Or is it the day where mrS interfered the smooth sailing journey to the course?
If that is so, i just need to speak up.
But, to who? To mrJ? The mentor of the group?
I don't know.
Maybe, it got nothing to do with school at all?
But deep down in my heart, the word school is highlighted next to the word stress.
So, that makes stress school.
Therefore, it's school that makes me stress.

Yes it's true that things changed in Polytechnics.
Lecturers won't be spoon feeding you when you're learning.
It has the one and only reason -YOU are a YOUNG-ADULT now. So learn to be ADULTS.
Well, it's true. We need to learn to be ADULTS and adapt to the environment.
But, what if the lecturer does not even giving you any spoon to spoon feed yourself?
Don't tell me we're going to get our own spoon.
Cause that's ridiculous.
Spoon are still to be provided. The menus are to be given.
So we will know what is good and what is not.
And, we will eventually spoon feed ourselves.

It might be easy for you to say.
But, i'm the one facing this pain.
I might not be able to say what i had in mind.
At least give me time.
It's the lecturer , there's no 'S' behind so it's only one of them and the assignments that makes me stress.
Maybe, i'm being hard to myself.
But, if i'm not i won't be doing those works and i'm all dead.
I'll just end up probably at the mental institution.
Serious enough?
Haiz.

Boyf,
It is easy for you to go like "Change your course, it's killing you."
But..
Have you ever thought of the consequences behind it?
If i can't get in to the course this year, i have to wait next year.
Waiting is not a problem.
My biggest fear is what if i couldn't defeat this year's O levels students?
That will just make me more stress.

I'm confused.

Life is unfair at times because of the wrong choices we made. And as for me, i've made many wrong choices.
From this to now.

Bestie will know what i mean. What wrong choices i've made.

2009-05-14T22:18:00.003+08:00

Why did i even think i could cope before i start?!
Might be thinking highly of myself.
Haiz. Now i regret.
And i'm at the edge of giving up.
It's just 4 weeks and i'm all messed up.
What will 3 years be?
Maybe some will say i'll get use to it and even some will say it'll be okay.
But, see what happened today?
Bestie and boyf will know what happened and what i was given.
4 weeks, in fact just 3 weeks since the class start i've already SERIOUSLY stress and downcast.
First, thanks to relationship(which is probably okay now) and second thanks to mrS.
If this continues, i'll finally just say goodbye and i'll just leave the SIDM.
Probably NYP even.

Relationship seems to be a major stress yesterday.
And school is a major stress everyday.
How could i even run away from stress?
Will a medicine even help?

I was seriously giving up that i told boyf to leave me alone.
I extremely gave up that i told mum ,
"I can't cope. If i can't change my course this year, i'm willing to wait for another year."

-.-

Bestie told me that i need to take things slowly. But, i don't know how. That's the root of everything. I just don't want the bad to happen. Haiz.

2009-05-14T13:23:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was the worst day of the week.
Today might not be.

2009-05-13T23:00:00.002+08:00

So, another Wednesday uh.
Another FUCK to describe the day.

First, thanks to my sickness. MABUK all the way, especially when i was at AMK with Abid.
Second, thanks to the MRT, bus, and taxis. =.=
Third, thanks to my handphone.
Fourth, thanks to the person who flag and take my taxi away. WHICH she shouldn't do as i was like queing at a TAXI STAND. TAXI STAND MIND YOU!
Fifth, thanks to VAS for making me stress right now. The module is seriously riDOCulous.
Sixth, thanks to AECS4 for not allowing me to download the trial. That was a serious "HELP."
Seventh, thanks relationship. Thanks.
Eight, thanks for thinking wrong about me.
Nineth, thanks to the tears that rolls down.
LASTLY, thanks once again to WEDNESDAY!

But, thanks to Abid for cheering me up. I appreciate that loads friend. Thank you.

2009-05-12T23:28:00.002+08:00

7 years uh.
Starting from 11 september.

Hmm, well. 5 years in Singapore and 2 more years overseas (probably Taiwan).
Hesitate at first, but as i discuss with myself at the back of my head -I've decided, you can serve the 7 years of NS. Go ahead and sign on.

7 years might be a little torturing, but boyfriend if it bring you the best please go ahead. I don't mind at all. It might be lonely years, but it's okay. I know you're out there safe and i'm okay. Eventhough the 1 month thailand trip of yours almost kills me, but i manage to survive. So, 7 years will be a little challenging, but for you.. i'll try to survive. A promise. You do your part and i'll do my.

Maybe we won't be seeing each other, but deep inside we are together. Remember our believe -If god want us to be together, we will be together.

2009-05-12T00:36:00.002+08:00

So it goes like this...

Sleeping late nights to get assignments done. How wonderful? GG (a term use by my class for dead?) LOL!

Anyway, currently working on my AVS module assignment and it's killing everyone. I swear, when this is done, everyone will have calmness and relax in their mind. At least for a moment. Tomorrow is suppose to be no school day and yet, returning back to school to get some work done. How pack our schedule can be? Adapting this lifestyle real fast.

Was having monday blues as i wasn't feeling well in the morning. I somehow panic certain people. LOL. Arie and Hui Wen especially. I remember in the drawing class.

*Sharpening Charcoal Pencil*

Me: I feel like fainting. -(& i mean it in the conversation. I was seriously dizzy.)
Hui Wen: You want me to tell Mr Jimmy? I tell arh.
Me: NO!!!! Shh. I lazy go make up class.

Idiot right? Make up class equals to extra time, might as well use that time for other assignments which will be stacking up soon. =.= !

*Drawing the shapes*

Me: Mabuk nya. Nak faint.
Arie: You ok? If not i report to jimmy now.
Me: *laughs*
Arie: I'm serious Hidah. I'm not lying.
Me: I'm fiiinneee. Don't worry.
Arie: Keep on say you ok, but you not ok.

LOL! Another darling of mine that ask me "Are you okay?" for like since 9 am in the morning till 3 pm. LOL! :D She was so concern about me. So sweet of you dear. :)

I was seriously mabuk-s (dizzy), aching everywhere, shivering and lost focus. Evidence are..

-I almost left my wallet in the toilet which has more than 100 bucks on it. =.= !
-I tried opening the toilet's store room's door instead of the real toilet door thinking i can leave by that door. =.= !
-I lost focus in jimmy's class. My shading and shapes are super messy today. =.=!
-I didn't speak so much in the morning.
-TOOK PANADOL at my own risk for the first time. =.= !

See that? I'm sick!

2009-05-08T12:56:00.003+08:00

The rule of the game now is to...
present your puzzle game to Josef and get it improved.
The rule also states that..
you can either do so next week or now.

So, guess which one i obeyed?
Good job. It is most definitelt the second stated rule. -.- !
Plainly lazy to discuss utmost about anything now. Serious lazy.

Current activity , trading ingredients with CH in restaurant city.
Messaging boyf and facebook-ing. =X !

Waiting for weekend to come and finish all those stacking assignments (which due next week).
Weekend come slowly and ends slowly too.
Bye.

2009-05-08T12:56:00.002+08:00

2009-05-08T12:56:00.001+08:00

Bored.

Abid is superly noisy next to me.

2009-05-07T21:45:00.003+08:00

BLOGSKIN CHANGED = idk what.
Haha.

Well, today is better than yesterday. It is a HUGE obvious alright?

I was utterly definitely noisy in class that i irritates Anban, Abid, Arie, Candace, Eugene, Zac and Daniel. Sorry love-lies, that will just naturally happen when i'm sleepy. At least, you love-lies gave me your full attention. I love you all. HAHAHA!!

Anyway serious, i find myself to be NOISY in class today. LOL! The only person that's not irritated by me is Shu Wen. Or maybe she's plainly lazy to even get irritated by me. HAHA!

3 hours of VAS is stress enough for everyone. 1 hour of lecture is fast. Lunch with Zac, Eugene, Daniel, Abid, Jasper and Arie after lecture. Then off home with Daniel, Eugene and Arie. While Zac, Jasper and Abid stayed for their audition.

Took bus home today. This also equals to NO MORE MRTs. I loike. :D

Home, read MANGA and now waiting for my sister to come back home from work.
Faster faster, i want to sleep.

Bye faithful readers.

2009-05-06T22:52:00.002+08:00

Sad is the only word i can use for right now.
Eh, wait. There's another word -FUCK.

First, my effort went down the drain very fast. All thanks to my careless. I'm all fuck up when he announced that we've done a serious offence. 5% is not reachable. I need to work that 95% now. Haiz. I'll make sure history won't repeat. Serious serious.

Next, thumbdrive spoilt at the very right time. The small item actually cracked? OMG! I went panicky at a moment and start to think about a solution. The easiest solution is to go bankrupt and invest in a NEW thumbdrive. Which is equals to another fuck up.

Lastly, some misunderstanding.

So, what's today? Not-my-day day uh? Well, thanks WEDNESDAY!

2009-05-06T01:38:00.002+08:00

DUH!

I've seen the true colours of poly life and how i wish i'm back to secondary school?
It's when i always make myself MC when i haven't do any particular homework as it won't affect my attendace for debarment or deparment or whatever it is!

But poly is like if you don't do it, you better get it done by TONIGHT! Not coming tomorrow.. it will seriously affect your attendance. Below 85%, please retake module.

=.=

2009-04-29T16:41:00.003+08:00

You know how it feels when you are close to winning and you end up falling down?
Everyone experience it. And i made Anban feel it today. (:

Munchkin card game is fun. But the assignment part is so not fun. Urgh.

2009-04-28T20:41:00.003+08:00

So, people around is complaining about the money out due to items that we HAVE and MUST buy from Art Friend. Well, that's the nature isn't it? When money is involve, everything seems to be painful. Even for me! I mean 200 bucks gone for first 2 weeks for school? What's next?

Enough of school. (;

Overall, life has been great.

Things bought this week:

Boyfriend bought us a couple tee. :D
I bought us a couple anklet. :D

Happy happy.

ASSIGNMENTS!

2009-04-25T20:12:00.002+08:00

First week is partially killing me.
I wonder what willl second week be.

Oh well, i've slept the whole day today. I was tired. Basically cause i've used up my night yesterday for my POGD's assignment 1. Re-do it and i felt much more sastified.

Today's badminton date is obviously cancel. Reason is that there is not slots available.

There's nothing more to update.

Bye readers.

2009-04-22T20:39:00.002+08:00

Hello ladies and gentlemen.
Alright i know it's lame. Anyway, i've been away for long again. No worries, i'm back faithful readers.

So first day of school is like ultimately so-not-prepared day. 1 hour of lecture is not a torture, but instead it's moderate of fun and enthusiasm from everyone. Break was the best. After 1 hour of break, everyone dragged ourselves to the drawing studio. Well, i (probably just me) was thinking that the drawing class will be easy. However, it's harder than i thought it is. First, we need techniques. And due to that, we were assigned our number 1 practice exercise. So there we go.

Second day of school (which is TODAY) was pure better as defined by Daniel. It's like 100% pure better. 3 hours of lab (POGD) is like fun for the week 1 lesson. We were showed all those PPS and copied some notes and in the end we were assigned for our practical. Our practical is to play this card game (The world of Munchkin) . It's extremely lively. However sad, i didn't manage to win.

For those that have not play the game before :

It's actually a game where you need to defeat/fight a monster. If the monster that you are fighting is level 3, you need level 4 or higher to defeat it. Each time you're able to defeat the monster you will be level up by 1 level. Or in any other way, you still can level up (if i'm not wrong). Or something like that. I don't really know how to explain. For sure, the game is addictive.

So, tomorrow will be 1 hour of lecture and that's it. =.='
A bit lame, but how lame it is attendance is still IMPORTANT. Duh..!

I think better get going. Bye readers.
I love you all.

Boyfriend,
Thanks for everything. Everything also next week. HAHA! Kidding.

2009-04-18T21:14:00.002+08:00

Two thumbs up for Zac Efron's acting for the movie 17 again. It's really an excellent acting this time round comparing to High School Musical's. Perhaps, more this roles in future? Well done Zac!

Two thumbs up for the movie 17 again. Really hilarious and entertaining. At the same time, the message that i received from that movie is "Appreciate your life and don't waste it, cause after that it will never be the same again." Excellent movie. Way better than i expected. Great job 17 again!

One thumbs up for the CTSS carnival 09'. Well, it is good that there's crowd this year. It's a big crowd comparing to previous years. However, it's not what i expect it to be. Anyway, all i did was to see all the teachers and i did. So, it's a worth trip down to CTSS today.

2009-04-16T23:22:00.003+08:00

Boohoo! I'm updating.

2 hours of badminton is tiring, but fun. I'm so going to play more of it. Yeah, fun fun!

2009-04-11T22:53:00.002+08:00

BRRRRR!

I'm back darlings.

I'm losing 130 bucks instantly this month. It is going to be eaten up by singtel. Blah! It's my handphone bill of course. Nah, it's my own fault to surf the internet so much. Serve me right. Therefore, i promise i won't download anymore games or surfing the net. I promise. Urgh, no shopping this month i guess. Frustration. =.= !

Okay, so back to my daily life stories. LOL!

For the week. :)

MONDAY , 6 april 09:

Went for my medical check up at NUH. Only the closest know what am i having. Anyway, doctor increased the dose of my medicine and also add in one more medicine. Well, life has been different since i'm a patient. What to do? It's life.

Took my new pair of spectacle. Fresh from Japan. WOOHOO! :)

TUESDAY, 7 april 09:

Did nothing. Just that accompanied daddy to TTSH and off home. Suppose to shop with daddy though, but was cancelled.

WEDNESDAY, 8 april 09:

The day i became a MAK SU! Member pandai pandai panggil aku Mak Su siak! Fateha, thanks arh. Aku paling kecik lah mentang mentang. HAHA!

Went out with Fateha, Ayu and Puputz (Fateha's little adik sedara ;cousin).

Met them at Lot 1. Then off to causeway point. Then off to Yew Tee, sent puputz home then thought of going far east, end up going back to Lot 1. After that, went home.

Puputz is so cute lah! Nak jumpa dia lagi! Boleh boleh boleh? Yang aku ingat tentang puputz - "Puput nak ni?" And Puputz will go geleng her head. Dan bila musik kedengaran, puputz akan goyang kepala goyang. HAHAHA!

THURSDAY, 9 april 09:

Work. 1400hrs to 2200hrs. SIGH! Then off home. Boyfriend fetch me up. On the way home, met my long lost god brother. HAHA! Halim lah, who else. Still not bad looking arh abang?! LOL. :)

FRIDAY, 10 april 09:

Stayed at home for the whole day. Serious. Did absolute nothing except for eating and drinking. HAHA! :D

SATURDAY, 11 april 09:

Work again. Mid-shift. 1200hrs to 2000hrs. :) !

SUNDAY, 12 april 09:

Work again. Mid-shift. 1200hrs to 2000hrs. :) !

That's for the week. :D

1 MORE WEEK AND SCHOOL WILL BEGIN.

WAITING FOR MY NOTEBOOK! urgh.

2009-04-06T15:07:00.002+08:00

My red spectacle is ready. WOOHOO!
Collecting it la-ter with mummy. (:

Happy happy.

HAHA!

Currently, i'm making a song. Oh god, i need a guitar. BOYFRIEND, buy one. Please. LOL.

2009-04-03T00:04:00.002+08:00

Orientation is over. And i'm very glad to say that everything turned out to be an event that i will remember for the rest of my years in NYP.

I love the OGL(s), especially YZ, Clement and I-Z. :D
I love the way the people in my class treats each other. :D
Basically, it's a fun experience and making friends is the most important part.
Glad to say.. I did made a large number of new friends.
Thank god. Alhamdulilah.

Next, my NYP classmates (DG03) just had this joint convo, and all of us were crazy. 14 of us were like super high online. Haha. (: ! Nice one everyone. :D ! And slowly, everyone decided to back out and SLEEP. So did i. LOL.

Basically, that's it lah. I'm being stupid. Updating for the sake of updating. =.='

2009-03-30T22:39:00.002+08:00

There's two parts for my day today.

Part 1:

A slow and slacking day. Basically, wake up. Breakfast cum lunch, watch tv. Then pet society-ing all the way till 2.30 pm.

Part 2:

Bath. Doll myself up and off to CK TANGS to return my punch card. Hell yeah, i need that little tiny pay. HAHA! After that, meet my beloved GFs (LY, LT and SW). Walk around Takashimaya deparmental store. Bought a tag bag. Then, off to Sephora and i've finally bought my body spray. (: LOVING IT SO MUCH! Then off home.

Two parts, complete. :D
Haha.

Tomorrow's orientation. I'm super nervous. LOL.

Reasons:

What am i suppose to wear? (First impression counts)
What if i'm late? (SUAY lah hor)
What if i couldn't find that block A? (Kanasai)
What if i end up making no friends? (Impossible, according to my NYP mate)

LOL! Maut sak. Aku rasa aku fikiran banyak sangat tu sebab banyak "What if". haha.

I think i'll just act COOL tomorrow. Padahal.. Tuhan jek lah yang tahu.
Forget it. Tomorrow will be fine. :D Insya'allah.

Currently, waiting for America's Next Top Model to begin showing. Boring.

=.='

2009-03-28T23:41:00.003+08:00

Life is seriously unpredictable, eh? I wasn't expecting those rumours (according to most of his friends). Well, perhaps, i'm being too paranoid to believe. So, guest, since you didn't tell me the real true story, i will just suggest for you to back out.

I'm so not against you. Sorry, but i had enought nonsense in my life, i don't want any additionals or upsizes of it. Sorry for not appreciating your "help" or any way, but i need to lead a life of my own. Afterall, I DON'T KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

Just vanish and I'll be better. Thank you.

___________________________________________________________________

Hey people.

Statements (of my life, since i've not been updating).

I'm spending money over my budget this month.
My working lifestyle is fading away, but i'm not quitting.
I miss my gendut. (Afiq).
School is starting in 3 weeks time.
New handphone and new number.
Boyfriend and me have not been meeting.
Some "rumours" benumbed me.
Lethargic now.
I've been reading books. Buku novel cinta kapa? Jiwang or what Hidah? LOL.
Regret having my big lunch at Bugis's Seoul Garden. Admit, the staffs there are nice and pleasant, but the food are so limited. Taka's the best. A BIG REGRET.
Had my first KFC dinner with my GF(s) at home.
Finally watched Homerun and Just Follow Law. =.=
Regret of wasting my 2 hours watching MADHOUSE.
Won a bet with younger sister. (: ! Earn $1.50 . LOL!
Auntie's condition worries me. Seeing her, downcast me.
New specs.
New laptop.
New WALLET. i love it. :D
I miss GFs.
Pet society-ing lately.

That's all. Maybe there's more, but i don't realise it.

Living in a capricious life sometimes makes me feel dead on its feet.

2009-03-11T12:43:00.003+08:00

Don't give me excuses/reasons. I hate that the most. Nah, i won't ask you anymore cause the results will just be an heart pain. You're not your previous self. Just be yourself. =.= !

So, today i'm suppose to go and take my certificate with Shi Han. However, i decided not to. Shi Han called me around 11am and i was like still snoring away. LOL!

Shi Han: Oi! Want to go?
Me: Where?
Shi Han: Take cert.
Me: When?
Shi Han: Now lah.
Me: Sorry, now i cannot.
Shi Han: Ohhh... okay. Never mind.

LOL! The real reason is that i'm super lazy to get up my bed. Plus, i just took my medicine and i fell asleep. So, i told Shi Han i cannot make it instead of telling him actually i'm not even clean yet. LOL! :D Sorry Shi Han.

Anyway, i can't wait for my girls-day-out with my girlfriends. Primary school girlfriends. I swear laughter will fill the air. (: ! 8 years of friendship and still counting babes! (: Love you many many. :D

Ok. I better get going. I'm addicted to viwawa! Serious. LOL! :D

2009-03-10T11:44:00.003+08:00

Picture taken at PASIR RIS beach by HIDAH. Yes, it's me. I don't think it carries the message i'm trying to portray. (: Hehe.

Imagine yourself to be that tree. Skinny and almost leaveless. Yet, it caught my eyes cause it was standing upright (proud being itself) even though it was surrounded by much more beautiful nature. Namely, the waves of the sea, the bright blue sky, the beautiful sand, and more. It blends with the others and end up being one of them. Beautiful but not the same.

The real message is ; Don't care on how other think about you. As long as you can adapt with the people around you, you will be just like one of them. Beautiful, yet differently. (:

2009-03-09T21:51:00.004+08:00

So, i took this notebook from sister and i end up not using it. At the beginning i decided to use it as a personal diary. You know where you go "Dear Diary here" and "Dear Diary there". Lame, i know. I find it hard for me to start that kind of old time diary too. HAHA! I end up tearing every pages that i've written on. Fuck up lah. HAH.

Next, i've finally compiled all my neoprints into one book. I like it so much (of course i have to -my effort is all in there). I want to take more neoprints. Yes MORE! 5B2, want take together? HAHA! :D KIDDING. We won't be able to squeeze in one neoprint machine this Thursday. LOL!
I can't wait to meet you all again. Oh my, i miss you ass-es. HAHAHAHAAH!! :D

Today i was pissed off with 2 irritating attitude human beings. Please, have some manners. You guys are no big deal for me. Simply just some random human beings like others and yet acting like you're a major role in this world. What the ass can that be? BRRRR!

Person No.1 : A woman. She's an irritating security guard (to me). A malay/female one. ASS language and body language. I hate that.

Person No.2 : An AH PEK at the hospital. So the gatal (flirty) and yet got the fucking bravery to scream at me. And it's because the toilet door wasn't close after i used it. Idiotic.

I hate this retards.

Alamak, i'm super addicted to viwawa. HAHA!

Oh, i had a look at my planner just now and i have so many things to do. KNS lah. I need to rush everything now. I mean, i really need. URGH! My months have been packed. Hate that. I need some time to have a real down-to-earth chill with boyfriend. Yes, i need it. How how? Break break. Heh.

I want to make a new song. Yet, inspirations gone. I don't know to where. ): Idiotic right!
Haiz. Inspirations come back soon. I need you.

Tomorrow i'm going to the hospital -yes dad's admitted again. Nah, nothing serious. Just breathless. He'll be fine. (:

I think i better get going. Bye. (:

To that person (whoever you are) -GET A LIFE. I'm not saying that i hate you or what. No, i hate you for what you did. You are superly sucks. You don't have to do it this way to see other people suffer. I'm sorry, but i got the feeling it will hit you back. Devastating someone by that way is seriously immatured. Oh boy. Let me remind you, what comes around goes around. That's all.

2009-03-04T21:11:00.002+08:00

1 word ; WONDERFUL! (:

Yes, i came back from the class chalet hours ago. Just that i just woke up a few hours back. HAHA! Sleeping on my bed is what i've been missing. HAH! :D

There's few words to explain the days in chalet. Excellent, awesome, well done, enjoying, entertaining. I was seriously enjoying the class chalet this time round. The barbeque went smoothly. I mean, very smooth. Nice one everyone. :D !!!

Okay, there's so many first time for me as well during the days i was at the chalet. Those first time are all good. It makes me feel entertained and contented. I was seriously treating myself a good time. (: !

I love every moment of the chalet. (: !

To Boyfriend:
I'm very happy.

2009-03-01T15:14:00.003+08:00

The other day was truely a nice outing/window shopping with my dearest Li Ting. (:

Trust me, it was a super duper tiring yet fun day. From Bugis to Marina Square to Suntec City and back to Marina Square. :D It was a nice walk. Honest, we bought nothing (okay, we did ;A handphone strap). The rest of the days were filled with just walking around and window shopping, and gossiping (of course). Heh. I bet tomorrow will be more fun. I'm meeting all my girls (Shu Wen, Hidayu, Li Yan and Li Ting). I miss them truck loads especially Hidayu and Li Yan. It's a hard time to meet them both now a days. Work lah, blah blah.

Yesterday i was being really guai. I've uploaded all 5B2's photo in my Facebook. Comment was forever about Miss G. The annoying feeling towards her is forever in everybody's heart. I mean, she forced us to. Anyway, forget it. Haha. What am i talking about her? HAHA. Anyway, my favourite album of all that's in my Facebook is the Interclass Game 2008's album. That was the most memorable time which i will never forget. It's the time when my class really starts to bond and play hard to win. Though we got the 3rd, at least our effort makes it all worth. HAPPY HAPPY! Haha.

I've got nothing else to update peoples. I better get going. Bye love ones.

FATEHA & NAF,

You both were relinked dearest. (: !

2009-02-26T13:40:00.002+08:00

Hello earthlings :D !

First and foremost, i suppose this dearly blog of mine need some updates for those sincere readers. Heh. Just kidding.

My enrolment package arrived earlier this week and up to now, i've done nothing about it. So, today my dearest sister (elder) decided to make a move for me. HAH! She began by calling the JMC to make an appointment for me for the medical check up. And, yup, the medical check up will cost me or my mum 25 bucks and it's today, in the late afternoon. I'm kinda excited about it. HAHA! Funny? Laugh then. =.='

Anyway, i need to remind myself certain things that i need to do. So, here i am listing all those stuff. Here it goes.

Things i need to do:

Attend the medical check up later this afternoon.
Continue with the E-enrolment thingy. (online)
Apply for student pass.
Make an Ez-Link card for myself (AS STATED IN THE PACKAGE).
Meet up Li Ting and collect the money.
Withdraw money before meeting Joey.
Take money from Joey for chalet and food cost. :D
Accompany mum to the market this Saturday for the food for class chalet.
Wake up early on Monday to check in chalet.
Ask brother in law about the block and unit number.

For now, that is it. :D May seems little, but a lot.. -i think. HAHA!

Okay, i better get going. Bye people. :D LOVE YOU ALL LOADS.

Boyfriend, please get that phone done. ):

2009-02-20T21:58:00.002+08:00

FLU is killing me inside. I hate it.

To Zenia: Yes dear. I am trying to stay strong. Don't worry, i'm all perfectly fine. =D

2009-02-15T22:58:00.002+08:00

To Fateha: Aku okay. (:

2009-02-14T11:26:00.002+08:00

So, you said you want us to try again.
I replied let's make it our last try.
GOD; will understand what i mean.
In future, i promised nothing.
I believe absolutely ZERO!
Darling,
This is the last time.
The last time i'm going to try.

To Hidayu:
Girl, i'm okay. Nothing much happen. Don't worry. Everything settle. See you soon!

2009-02-13T11:37:00.004+08:00

You told me you want to know the truth.
You say i wish you to leave.
Please, my feelings are telling me i'm tired.
Tired of everything.
I don't know if having you leaving me is the best choice.
Decision is still the hardest thing to do .
Do understand how i feel now?
It's not that i want you to shed and drown yourself in blood.
I'm not asking you to die.
No, never!
Get it? So blood is really out of the issue.
Don't use that as a reason to make me into a believer.
If you want blood, i'll give you blood too.
Darling,
You're not leaving, perhaps.
But i withdraw myself from the war.
I love him, i love him so much.
I don't want to lose him now.
He's my everything.
My father is my heart and soul.
I can't let him go.
He cried because of me, once.
And that's enough, i told myself.
It's a painful experienced for me to see him crying and begging me.
I admit defeat.
I know, coward ;that's the exact word for me.
Say anything you want to say.
I will swallow even it hurts my throat and kills my heart.
Can't you see that i want you to be happy?
I'm sure you will, if you are willing to try.
Baby dear,
I'm weaker than you thought i am.
Here,
I will say ; I love you, but i love him more.
He's fear of the history is worst than the fear i had.
So baby,
Please don't make him die because of this.
He's ill, he's no longer strong to defeat you.
I beg you.
Please get the reason right!

I'm just as rotten as a vegetable when i'm alone.

2009-02-12T23:34:00.003+08:00

I miss you, but i don't.
Don't ask me why.
Neither can you ask me what i mean.
Cause i don't know.
And i don't bother to know.
For me i can't hold it any longer.
The pain is killing me.
Your words makes me turned into a believer.
Without realising that i'm hurting you more than ever.
Can't you just go away and leave me alone here?
Again, don't ask me why.
You know the reason as i've repeat it more than a million times.
If this relationship is going somewhere (like you say),
Why are we still at the stage of being hated?
If the day will come (like you claimed),
Why are we still waiting?
Darling can't you see
Everything's setting back, fading away
From me to you to them to everyone else.
If only your sincerity comes before that bloody valentine,
Will all this chapter even be made?
Only if she doesn't exist
Will i be living life with the feeling of betrayal and fear?
Worst she's not the only one that you called "HER"
That's why I always think that there's some more that's coming.
Can't you see it's not only you, it's me too
In fact, it's us.
No, i couldn't stop.
Trying to sleep tonight wasn't the best solution.
I couldn't close my eyes.
I couldn't dream of anything better.
I need you to know, to know the reasons
The reasons to why this is happening.
So you'll free yourself and be who you are.
I don't want to change you if i'm the reason.
I want you to change because you're the reason to the changes.
See the world, it's still wide for you.
There's more for you to see.
See them before it's too late.
Baby dear
I can't fight this war.
They're too strong to make me win
Their words are more powerful than yours
Their weapons are one ;GOD.
I withdraw.

But...

I'm multilated.

2009-02-11T23:56:00.004+08:00

20 reasons why i'm happy today;

Dad came down to Tangs (my workplace) and bought me a CK handbag, which cost him approximately 200 cash! Thank you dad. Love you. I won't dissapoint you. It's a promise from me to you.
Finally, i get myself a card holder and it cost me $5.90 . I'm getting more organised.
It's the very first day of my working life that i manage to get a cheap lunch meal. Of course, with kak Asmah. :D
I manage to see Annie Tan (my JLO partner for today). She's nice, not as quiet as how Li Ting describe. HAHA!
A message from Megat makes me feel less bored at work. :D ! Thanks sweet guy!
Successfully applied Tangs card. I can enjoy those rebates. FAST FAST!
Pay day is coming. Shopping for cheap stuffs is ahead of me. DOUBLE YEAH!
My off day is coming.
Boyfriend had top up his prepaid. :D
I end work early today.
I'm having another morning shift for the next few days. MORE MORE HAPPY!
Mum only wants $600 from me. :D And, willingly to give dad $100.
Brian's emails are getting to the 'smile-after-you-read'
Gweny Darling will be with me tomorrow, can TALK AND TALK! Haha.
Baby's chalet is coming real soon! I want bbq food! HAHA.
I'm going smooth with the class chalet organising. :)
Manage to learn number in mandarin. Haha. It was a hard time lah, trust me! All the strokes thing. HAHA!
That i'm finishing my twilight. :D
I've watched bolt, which makes me laugh like shit!
I manage to realise what makes me happy! :D

10 things that makes me sad;

Pay day seems to be still long.
I'm worried about my stupid handphone, it's half dead (somehow).
JLO is quiet today.
The months i've spent without meeting boyfriend.
Afternoon shifts. =.='
The temptation to shop and finish up all my salaries. (I HATE IT!)
When i come in work late, idiotically i have to serve 15 minutes extra for being 1 minute late. HELLO! 15 minutes is like zillion years for me. HAH.
The running away case.
I have to be the 'temporary maid'. *CURSING*
To realise the things that makes me sad.

5 things that makes me anxious;

Pay day.
Enrolment letter/date.
School. Megat is at the same school as me, that guy! Hahaha. Always willingly asking me to message him so that he can tour me around. Sure dude! :D
Shopping day, i need to know if i can get cheap stuffs! Fine, call me a cheapo, hey i'm saving lah. Can?! HAHA
To realise that this things actually makes me anxious! HAHA.

So, that's the list.

I hate it when i have to start taking the calculator out and calculate my shopping budget. I mean, i need to save up some money for my expenses later on. Agree? So, i just have to bear with it. It's for my own good.

Birthday cake, please be cheap! =.='
Money, please roll in more. KNS!

Tomorrow will be in the morning shift. I better go to sleep now. Nights darlings.

2009-02-10T23:45:00.002+08:00

Counting down to pay day. :D

;7 more days, exactly 1 week! I can't wait.

Counting down to baby's birthday party chalet.

;11 more days, she's going to get a blast ice cream cake which will cost me a bomb! Haha.

Counting down to class chalet.

;20 more days, i'm going to be probably sleeping over. :D

THINGS TO DO:

Collect money from those in the list for class chalet.
Get a birthday cake for my dearest baby.
Finish up twilight, so i can buy NEW MOON! Plus, the story is getting interesting.

That's all.

I WANT TO SEE YOU HERE, WITH ME.

2009-02-09T22:57:00.004+08:00

First up, i fucking miss CK Tangs! I mean, it's been like days since i work there. I've been to places like Chinatown and Takashimaya. Experiencing work at Chinatown's OG is like hell nice! Haha.

I attended dozens of interesting customers. One cannot speak english, but understand it. One cannot speak english neither can they understand them. It's a hard time, as i need to like walk around the OG and get an Auntie to help me promote my GL. HAHA!

Today as an example, i was like standing on my Guy Laroche counter. I happened to saw a chinese customer. He was looking at my handbags, he seems interested though.

So i went like, "Hello sir. We're having 20% off for our regular item. While the one that you're looking at is our special buy, we've mark down the price up to 50%. Here we have more design. Please take a look." He gave me the looks like he was seriously listening and after those long sentences, all he answered was "Sorry, english i don't know." I was like, "Oh kay." The best part was he asked me something in chinese, which i obviously couldn't understand! At first, i ignored the situation. Untill, i realise that the both us was so quiet (even when we are actually communicating). It's like i'm mute and he's deaf. HAHHA!

Then i said, "Wo pu ke yi chang hua yi. Ni teng e sha." I ran to this auntie (an Elle promoter) for help. The customer asked her like dozens of questions. In the end, buy nothing! I was like, might as well, just stay mute and deaf! Haha. :D

Sales was bad today. Basically because none of my customers can speak english. All was from China. Obviously, my basic line for today was "Wo pu ke yi chang hua yi." First, they will give me a startled look. Of course, why am i speaking in chinese when i states that i can't speak chinese? Haha. However, they will realise that's the only sentence i can speak. HAAH!

Good news, i'll be send to People's Park OG this Saturday. Let's pray i'll upgrade my chinese speaking skills by that time. HAHA! :D

Blah. I'm turning bored.

I've made myself a shopping list. I want to drop by at the shopping mall one of the days (yes, after my pay day -of course). Haha! :D ! I want to buy this, buy that. HAHA!

URGH! I'm upper super duper feeling exhausted.

IT'S LIKE AS IF, WE'RE STRANGERS NO LONGER WHAT YOU SAID WE ARE -my friend.

2009-02-07T00:19:00.004+08:00

A cute little boy came to my PH handbag counter yesterday. He was holding one of PH's wallet. He looks anxious and curious. So i approached him.

Me: Hello. Let me do it for you.
Little Boy: Okay.
Me: Where's your mummy?
Little Boy: There. (Pointing to the Mum who is apparently at Stella's wagon).
Me: Oh. You like the wallet?
Little Boy: Ya. I like this one, that one and this one also. The colour.
Me: Really? Is it nice?
Little Boy: Ya. Nice. I like this one, that one and this one also. The colour.
Me: Why don't you ask your mummy buy it?
Little Boy: How much dollars is this?
Me: $349. Interested little boy?
Little Boy: Wah! So much. (And walk away).

Haha. If you were there to see and hear the way he speaks to me, you'll predict this little one is smart. :D

Another conversation is between me, my counter partner and a customer. :D

The customer was attended by my counter partner first. I heard some unsure conversation among them, so i decided to go nearer and asked my counter partner what does the customer want.

Me: Ya. Why leh Geraldine?
Geraldine: What brand for walllet is suitable for sevenTY years old? (Unfortunately, i heard sevenTEEN).
Customer: Ya, any suggestions?
Geraldine: Why not try Guy Laroche, Elle or Bonia?
Me: (Thinking Guy Laroche? Elle? Bonia? Isn't that too old for a sevenTEEN year old girl?)
Customer: You sure?
Me: Any age group can use our wallet. (still thinking it's sevenTEEN so i promote our PH brand)
Geraldine: (Gave me the 'huh?' look)
Customer: Hmm, i want sevenTY leh. (I still heard sevenTEEN).
Me: Then, you try guess lor. They should have the suitable one for sevenTEEN year old.
Geraldine: Ah?!
Me: Ya, Guess got what?
Geraldine: Ya ya. (Still blur)
Customer: It's okay. Thanks.

So, i was like wondering, why is it so difficult for them to search a wallet for a sevenTEEN year old girl?! There's brand like DKNY, CK, Guess, Paris Hilton, Picard .. etc. Not sastify, i went back to my counter partner and asked her.

Me: Customer actually just now ask what?
Geraldine: She wants a wallet that suitable a sevenTY year old lady. (FINALLY i heard it as sevenTY).
Me: SevenTY? Not sevenTEEN?
Geraldine: Ya. So you thought it's sevenTEEN?
Me: Exactly. That's why i say Guess!
Geraldine: No wonder. That's why i was like, "HUH GUESS?!"
Me: Never stop me! Paiseyy sia!
Geraldine: I thought guess got those collection for old people.
Me: Then you say GL, Elle, Bonia.. I was like sevenTEEN using those brand?
Geraldine: (Laughing like hell)
Me: Good arh, i blur you blur.. Customer don't bother. (Laugh also)

The both of us laugh like shit! It's like how blur can the both of us be? One TEEN and one TY! Hahaa! We laughed till our mouth were painful sia! :D

Nice PH partner i have. Love to go back there! :D

Tomorrow will be at People's Park OG. Not bad. :D!

TAKE CARE world.

2009-02-03T00:03:00.002+08:00

GOOD BYE SUBATRA.

It's sad when you're close enough with someone and you have to say good bye that fast. It's hurting.

Pictures below are taken on Saturday.

The five of us decided to give Subatra a farewell dinner at Newton as that was the last day she'll be with us. :D

A lot fun and food. Everyone clearly did enjoyed the day and took pictures. Pictures here are more kind off those that must upload while some random are still in process of uploading. HAHA. :D

Anyway, Subatra good luck! Do well in JC :D

2009-01-30T07:08:00.002+08:00

Yup, i'm early.

Everyone that saw me online was surprise to why was i so early. HAH!

Nah, nothing serious.

Just that i've received the JAE result exactly at 6.07 am. And i was kinda surprised for the course i'm posted to. I'm not really 100% upset though. I'm 40% upset. :D

So, in case you want to know. I'm posted to digital media design (games) at Nanyang Polytechnic. I immediately wake up and on the laptop to check out the course i'm posted to one more time. I think it's not that bad bah. It's kinda interesting. (: ! So there's nothing i should be worried about. All i need to do is JIA YOU. Haha :D

That's it. I'm catching my sleep back. HAHA! :D

PS: I'm not sad. Don't worry Fawwaz. :D

2009-01-28T23:19:00.002+08:00

I have been wondering over and over again.

I've been asking non stop.

"When will i ever feel a real feeling of having a real best friend? Where, i can just dial her/him number she/he will make time for me and when she/he just dial my number, i'll make time for her/him too. When will i ever understand the meaning of crying for true friends? When will i ever get to explain my thoughts and having my best friend crying together with me? WHEN?"

Yup, i hate to say. However i think, i'm all damaged in heart. Nothing was appreciated. It's okay.

Anyway, without one, i can still live happy. :D HAA!

Currently, exhausted. Just came back from work. (:

:D I saw a guy that looks like Dean Fujioka. I'm super happy. He's nice. Funny though!

Today i met a super irritating customer. Keep on coming back to PH counter and try this particular bag, which at the end of the day.... BOUGHT NOTHING from PH!

That's it. Bye.

2009-01-26T20:48:00.002+08:00

How could i ever be as strong as you when i am the one that face this obstacle most of the time?
How could i ever run without getting tired when i don't feel any sense of winning?
Why is this happening?

I'm dead inside.

2009-01-23T12:40:00.003+08:00

Hello. I was like upper sian.

I messaged my in-charge early this morning. It's to inform her that i won't be able to attend work as i need to accompany my mum to settle some matters (regarding my new maid). She officially said okay. I'm leaving the house real soon.

Next, i was like helping my sister with the digital camera. You know, she took a couple of photos with my camera so, it's like she wants to upload those pictures. Therfore, i was teaching her and helping her out. Before uploading, i decided to clear/delete certain photos in my camera. Hence, i found a bunch of irritating photos that cost me a bomb but in the end, do nothing good. Obviously, it's those fuck up art photos. Immediately, anger was rising in me. Nope, i'm not angry at the 'absent' word stated on my result slip for this subject. Neither am i angry with myself. I'm angry at the ridiculous time and money i spent on the subject and ignored other much more important subject. I should've done better for my maths and science if i didn't put my heart and soul on the art piece. First of all, i shouldn't choose art as my elective subject, i should have just chosen something theorically. BLAH! It's over. Anyway, giving up my art was a thing i did for my others subject. As a result, i manage to score for all my other subjects. I'm happy with my result. :D ! To end, those art photos are all deleted. So, it won't pop out anymore.

Tomorrow i'll be in the morning shift. I will attend work tomorrow as there's no important matters to attend to. So, i'll be there. Don't worry Hazel. Heh.

Since i'm not working today, i thought i might as well do things that i should have done but i have not. I'll do all this matters as soon as i finished accompanying my mum. :D

Things to do today:

Return the library book i borrowed and pay the overdued debts.

Return OG's scan card and tag -to retrieve my 10 bucks.

Go and buy a facial mask. (if possible)

Help mum buy her top up card and mine. (not that important)

That's it. :D

I'm so devastate by the definition of best friends. Though Brian tried to make me hold on, but i still believe that best friends doesn't exist. Even if it does, i need someone to prove it to me. Who will? I don't care any longer. Since believing in best friend have depredated me, why should i continue believing in it? So, it's off my dictionary.

Anway, this Brian i'm talking about is my friend from phillipines. :D

I think i better get going lah. I'll definitely be late if i don't get ready now. Bye.

Thanks once again Hazel for letting me to accompany my mum to settle some urgent matters.

PS: Boyfriend, what if i can't get that sim card?

2009-01-23T00:36:00.003+08:00

Finally, i feel more fresh for my blog. HAHA!

Anyway, being given the afternoon shift all the way, it's been hard for me to update my blog for the past few days/weeks. As for today, i was changing the colour of my blog's background and getting my blog a new fresh tagboard, i dedided why not update it with a new post as well? haah!

So here i am.

I've got my pay for the last month. Which is kinda pathetic as i only paid for 2 days of salary. Duh? =.=' But at least, i do have my first salary and my pay slip. HAHA! I've happily spent my salary by buying 1 boyfriend tee and 1 casual dress. I think i'm going to spend more next month. HAH! Kidding.

I want to buy that shoes that everyone is using. I want to buy that bag that everyone is wearing. I want to buy that bodyshop foundation that someone recommended to me. I want to buy that flops that i've been wanting for so long. I want to buy that DKNY handbag that been waiting for me. I want to buy that spectacles that i saw at queensway. I want to buy that... I want to buy that...

The list won't just stop. I have more to go people. I mean it. Big spender, that's me. I seriously need to control myself. Duh! Haiz, but i can't hold it, there's just like so many to buy. Just what will be able to make me think twice about my expenses. I need to think of a way!

I want to sleep. I'm super tired. :D Bye world.

2009-01-10T20:43:00.002+08:00

To Hidayu:
It's okay. There's no need for you to apologise. Thanks anyway.

So, work is getting kinda irritating for me due to the partners i had. Yesterday was horrible, today was semi-horrible. Brrr.

Okay, enough speaking about work.

Monday is the moment of truth. My heart is pumping wilder and wilder. I don't know how i will drag my leg into the newly build school's hall, and wait for the release of the result as calm as i could, repeating "I know i can. I've done my best." Speaking about Monday, i'm feeling butterflies in my tummy. God knows how i feel. Oh, please!

I think i better go. Bye.

2009-01-07T23:30:00.002+08:00

Wearing my uniform is like a routine now. Pathetic kinda fashion, but nice. Haha!

Work is getting better so far. Tired is an of course, but as the day pass, i'm used to it. It's a fun job. :D I made new friends. Nice people.

Life was good, i swear. Just that there's a pathetic "angel" that's trying very hard to destroy my day by posting lame and fucking childish tags. I mean, if you dare to tag all those words, why aren't daring enough to put your name? Right? Anyway, as you say it, forget it. Push yourself away from it, and i swear we both will live happily ever after.

And, recently i found a letter in my wardrobe. It's from a friend, when i was around 14 years old. It was how she express herself to me, all about her problems. I realise the pained she went through one more time, but it's over. I remembered how i cried when she called me and tell me that she's not feeling well and need money to go for some check up. I recalled how i begged my parents to help her, but in the end, nothing seems to be better now? She had stopped messaging me, she had stopped asking me out, she had even stopped MSN-ing me. Perhaps, she had a much better friend, a better friend that she can call her bestest friend. I just have to let it be as how it is. In my life, i never get the real feeling of a real best friend. It's okay. Without one i still can survive. For now, i think the closest friend i have is the 3 girls, LY, LT and SW. Thanks girls.

Okay, i'm starting to hate this pathetic girl at work. It's like i tried to be friend with her, and she gave me this non-chalant attitude. Not a smile, not a word, not even a pleasant stare. Her eyes were always staring at me like as if there's something in me that makes her hate me so much. Annoying. It's okay, being a happy go lucky girl, i ignored her and continue with my work. :D Haha!

Lastly, results is like real soon. Whirlpool of emotions is strucking me. Praying hard for the better. :D

I think, i've said enough.

To passer-by:
Sorry, but being fat is not a problem for me. :)

2009-01-02T00:23:00.002+08:00

A brand new year :)

HELLO 2009!!

If you were to ask me what's mine wish for 2009,
I will answer, "I wish my wishes i've made before come true."

If you were to ask me what i want to do in 2009,
I will answer, "I want to do something more worth than playing and slacking."

If you were to ask me what i want to be in 2009,
I will answer, "I want to be someone better than who i am in 2008."

If you were to ask me what's new in 2009,
I will answer, "Everything's new. From me to you, to them to everybody."

:D .

To Family,
I love you. The support is the one i appreciate the most from all of you. Thank you for trusting me once again.

To Boyfriend,
A year had past. Now, we are heading to a new fresh year. Be prepared, there's more to come. I love you bao bei.

To CTSS-mates,
HAHA. Something huuuggggeee is coming. O levels results, wish you all the best. :)

To Friends,
You're all remembered and the friendship made are treasured.

To Teachers,
Thanks for making my 2008 a smooth sailing journey and made me face the challenge with no big fear. :D

To Myself,
Make everything you wish for a wish come true. :)

2008-12-30T23:40:00.002+08:00

Hello people.

Work today was fun. I was stationed at the same place as yesterday, so there's nothing new. :D
I love the people around there, they are all friendly. I admit. :D
Stephanie, taught me a lot today. Thanks to her. :D
Ended work at 9.30 pm today.
:D

I love the job, cause i like the thing where i have to approach customers. :)
Haha.

I love my name tag. Super cool can? haha.

:D K, i better get going.

:D :D Double happiness.

2008-12-28T22:19:00.003+08:00

Today was tiring, didn't sleep last night due to some random drama. I know, that's rather pathetic. However, i just can't help it. The drama gets better and more and more ; CRAP. I will cut it here. LOL.

Anyway, today's work interview was awesome. It's like finally, i manage to grab a job and i promise i will do well. The job is interesting, i like it. Thanks Li Yan and Shu Wen for introducing me to the job. So, Hazel's says she will give me a call if she needs someone to work, as she needs to do some rosters. :D How happy?! Li Ting applied too. Nice nice.

Alhamdulilah. :D

Okay, i think i better get going. Bye.

2008-12-25T14:55:00.001+08:00

I end up having my own dinner with my family the other day. All thanks to the idiotic traffic. ARGH! It's over anyway, it's not like the last outing. We can always plan more more outing darlings. :D

Anyway, yesterday was just plainly me and the rain. Very boring. I planned to pay westmall a visit, but it have to be cancelled. Thanks to the weather. Hahah.

Haha. Pictures will be uploaded. Sorry, i'm plainly lazy.

Pet-society, rise to a new level. HAPPY HAPPY.
heh.

:D I got a lot of coins too.

I've finished my drama, it's super nice. :D

Buying new one.

Next friday, is an outing with atiqah. :D Can't wait.

:D :D

2008-12-20T17:07:00.002+08:00

Bao bei,

I love you.

:) This is the poem i told you. Haha.

2008-12-19T15:58:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, what i feel outside is not what i really feel inside.
Everything was my fault, every single thing.
I'm the bad one.
It's okay.

2008-12-16T21:44:00.002+08:00

It's just me and the laptop today.

I was pet society-ing. Indeed, it's very egg-citing. I should have joined this game before hand. Today was nothing much.

Boyfriend, is not at home. He's out for 3 days for chalet. Kinda sad, kinda worried, and many more. Anyway, hope he enjoyed.

I think better get going. Pictures will be uploaded. Yes, i snaps today :D !

Bye darlings.