CALM DOWN. STAY CALM.

HIDAH, CALM DOWN. WHATEVER THEY SAY, YOU DIDN'T DO IT. YOU'RE NOT AS CRAZY AS THEY THOUGHT YOU ARE. REMEMBER, IT'S THE MATTER OF YOURSELF AND YOU'LL BE SAFE. (: ! CATCH YOURSELF IF YOU COULD BEFORE YOU FALL, UNDERSTAND? I'M ALWAYS IN YOU. YOUR STRENGHT OF FAITH. (: !!

This is sucks. I seriously feeling that my back is so painful, my shoulder there like swollen. ASS! Haiz. Today didn't went to school though. Due to back pain lorr. Anyway, i did meet hidayu to get my stuffs.

I'm bored to the bloody core. SUPER BORED. Haiz. Nothing is going to be fine for me lah. Anything i do, there's always something that's isnt right. What the hell! FINE! Didn't my strenght of faith says, calm down??? So calm down girl. (: !

Hmm.






BEING A SOUL LIKE ME WASN'T EASY. I UNDERSTAND, THIS IS NOT THE WORST ONE CAN GO THROUGH, THERE'S WORST THAN THIS THAT ONE HAD EVER GONE THROUGH. LIFE HAS TO MOVE ON. LAST TIME, I GAVE UP EASILY. NOW, I TRIED TO STAND UP FOR MYSELF. I USE TO HURT THEM, DEEP. NOW, I TRIED TO HEAL IT. IF I EVER FAIL, IT MEANS, I'M GOOD FOR NOTHING, AND GOD SHALL TAKE ME AWAY. TONIGHT I SWEAR, WHATEVER HAPPENS, IT'S ALL ABOUT LOVE THAT I ALWAYS NEED. IF I EVER LOSE IT, I WON'T EVER SEARCH FOR ANOTHER. THE LOVE FOR THEM IS TILL I DIE, THE LOVE FOR HIM IS TO SACRIFICE, THE LOVE FOR MYSELF IS ALL ABOUT THEM AND HIM.-




LAO GONG!!!! I LOVE YOU. NOTHING CAN MAKE US GO OUR SEPARATE WAYS NOW. TELL ME, YOU'RE MINE MAN FOREVER. (: !











I DIDN'T KNOW IT'S JUST A PLAIN LIE WHEN YOU TOLD ME HE'S DEAD. WHY WAS IT ALL HAS TO BE LIKE THIS? NOW TELL ME, IS HE REALLY DEAD? OR IS HE SIMPLY HATING ME INSTEAD? SHUKRI, FORGIVENESS, THAT'S ALL I NEED.