Good morning Wednesday.

I hate yesterday. I hate the fact that i had to complete the coursework and give school a miss today. If the girls can make it to school, why can't i? I hate myself for missing school today. And i promise, this is the very last time i'm giving school a day off till O levels end.

Art is vanishing tomorrow. It's like finally. I know i won't be scoring as well as i thought i would be but i can't help it. I've told myself that giving up now won't make any different. So, i gave up and do whatever i can do. Now, i predict everyone must be hating me for what i am doing especially Mr Tan. I mean, eventually effort won't be counted in the grades. It's the skills and the toning and etc. I hate this! What's over is over. I can't rewind everything and be the good girl i used to be again. *SCREAMS*.

How can i turn my life into a clean piece again? I'm engulfed with fear, guilt and disappointment. A whirlpool of emotions struck me. Someone, help me. I'm drowning in my own deed.

Let's ignore this art thingy which is almost leads me to jumping off the building. ): !

Well, it is exactly 5 weeks more to O levels. Indeed, time flies very fast. I need to rush my revisions and etc. I just text projONE about my worries. There's no reply yet. I'll wait. O levels, i really need to give it a BANG! I will and i believe i can!

Things i realise this week(ranked):

1. Art coursework is coming to and end.
2. I shouldn't rush when i'm doing my mathematics papers. Especially when i have 2 hours to complete it.
3. I should start doing my tuition homeworks.
4. I can do well in any examinations if i had checked my papers after i'm done.
5. I've been a bad girl towards art.
6. I should stop playing!
7. My dearest kor is attached now. (:
8. I've lost.
9. I need money.
10. Hari raya is coming.

I typed enough. GOODBYE world.

FALLING UNDER EVERYONE'S AEGIS IS JUST WHAT I NEED.