Messages.

To my friend.

Clearly, it's not a conflict. Oh sure, that group of people told you how i felt? Indeed. Perhaps, you wasn't being proud to yourself. However, your expressions says it all. Why? Why did you do that? Instead of using some words that can boost my confidence up, you demoralised me? How will you feel if i do that to you? Won't you feel that i'm being proud as i acted that way?

And, i'm clearly not avoiding you. It's you who is trying to show me i'm at fault for not talking. But, look, i have my reasons. So many reasons. And, honestly, this isn't the first time you acted that way. Giving me the face i'm-better-than-you. I'm tired.

Girl, think. Don't you think you're trying to be me? Don't you? Or at least you wanted to be me don't you? Tell me, honestly. Jealous?

Lastly, i'm sorry but i'm not avoiding you and no one is. You decided to hang around with that group and i decided to hang with Li Yan and Shu wen, which i think they are helping me a lot now. I'm much more happier now. It's not that i'm not happy being with you but i just think you don't like my style. Seeing the years, it's rather heartaching. But, seeing you doing what you had done, hurts me more. I apologise.


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To 5B2.

If any of you are reading this, please pass the message to keep yourself FREE on 20th june cause class barbeque will be probably on that day. PLEASE. More information will be post up soon . Thank you. (: PASS MY BLOGGY ADDY TO THE CLASS TOO IF YOU DON'T MIND SO ANYTHING, YOU PEOPLE CAN VISIT MY BLOGGY. THANKS.

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To Boyfriend.

I trust you. I'll try my very best.

I'm just being negative. I don't want myself to get hurt again. I apologise for being very reactive towards that fucking drawing on that fucking wall.

Please erase that irritating, frustrating, hurting, heartaching, ugly, disgusting, freaking, asshol-ing, shitty drawing. PLEASE.

I don't want to lose you or to run away from you. I don't want to share my love.

I want to have you to MYSELF!

Cause, i love you.

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To myself.

FINISH UP YOUR PAINTING!














BYE WORLD.