Haiz.

I don't even know where the stress starts.
Is it the day mrJ told me that i've failed my Exe 1?
If that so, i just can't accept failure (which is wrong).
Or is it the day where mrS interfered the smooth sailing journey to the course?
If that is so, i just need to speak up.
But, to who? To mrJ? The mentor of the group?
I don't know.
Maybe, it got nothing to do with school at all?
But deep down in my heart, the word school is highlighted next to the word stress.
So, that makes stress school.
Therefore, it's school that makes me stress.

Yes it's true that things changed in Polytechnics.
Lecturers won't be spoon feeding you when you're learning.
It has the one and only reason -YOU are a YOUNG-ADULT now. So learn to be ADULTS.
Well, it's true. We need to learn to be ADULTS and adapt to the environment.
But, what if the lecturer does not even giving you any spoon to spoon feed yourself?
Don't tell me we're going to get our own spoon.
Cause that's ridiculous.
Spoon are still to be provided. The menus are to be given.
So we will know what is good and what is not.
And, we will eventually spoon feed ourselves.

It might be easy for you to say.
But, i'm the one facing this pain.
I might not be able to say what i had in mind.
At least give me time.
It's the lecturer , there's no 'S' behind so it's only one of them and the assignments that makes me stress.
Maybe, i'm being hard to myself.
But, if i'm not i won't be doing those works and i'm all dead.
I'll just end up probably at the mental institution.
Serious enough?
Haiz.

Boyf,
It is easy for you to go like "Change your course, it's killing you."
But..
Have you ever thought of the consequences behind it?
If i can't get in to the course this year, i have to wait next year.
Waiting is not a problem.
My biggest fear is what if i couldn't defeat this year's O levels students?
That will just make me more stress.

I'm confused.

Life is unfair at times because of the wrong choices we made. And as for me, i've made many wrong choices.
From this to now.

Bestie will know what i mean. What wrong choices i've made.