i cried the whole night

HELLO!

People i don't bother to express how i feel now. I don't even know how i should feel now. I mean, hey i've no right to be jealous of that girl. He's free now, he can have a replacement anytime. But a little the sentence type by that girl hurts me. "Im attached to Clarence." Together with his face. Haiz. Its okay, don't have to convince me.

Anyway, day started with me slapping myself a few times. "WAKE UP HIDAH!YOU HAVE NO WAY TO BE ANGRY OR WHATEVER.LET THEM BE.TREAT IT AS LOVE ISN'T ON YOUR SIDE.EVEN WITH HIM CONVINCING YOU SHE WAS JUST AN EX BUT YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP, HIS OR NOT HIS EX YOU ARE JUST SOMETHING PAST FOR HIM.WAKE UP!"

Than took medicine and read a book untill 6 plus. Had a sleep. An called, but told him i have no mood to talk as something happen and he left me to be alone. Maybe he will be calling again maybe he's not. Whatever it is i just have no mood to talk. I've been so down today. I cried again and again. Tears rolls down silently. Anyway, the book i'm reading is also a sad one. STUPID HUSBAND OF HER! GO DRUNK AND HUG ANOTHER GIRL INFRONT OF HIS WIFE STILL DARE TO SCOLD AND SLAP HIS WIFE! FREAK SIA! haiz. im too carried away.

Anyway, than woke up. Mum was cooking dinner. My only meal today, dinner and a bowl of chicken soup. Wasnt feeling well today though so had to eat soup.

Now, i dont even dare to go to friendster. The reality there hurts me so much. Anyway, its okay. Life has to move on. Perhaps, he belongs to her. There's no way i can turn to make him mine once again. Its okay hidah. You are strong. You are still young. Make a lesson to be learn aite? Be extra careful in future. Hold on to yourself instead of falling for others help. You've got everything. Love, care and more love from your family. WAKE UP! You aren't losing anything. KILLING OR HURTING YOURSELF WONT HELP! masya-ALLAH.

Kay lah. i've type enough. i better get going. bye people.