i cried the whole night

HELLO!

People i don't bother to express how i feel now. I don't even know how i should feel now. I mean, hey i've no right to be jealous of that girl. He's free now, he can have a replacement anytime. But a little the sentence type by that girl hurts me. "Im attached to Clarence." Together with his face. Haiz. Its okay, don't have to convince me.

Anyway, day started with me slapping myself a few times. "WAKE UP HIDAH!YOU HAVE NO WAY TO BE ANGRY OR WHATEVER.LET THEM BE.TREAT IT AS LOVE ISN'T ON YOUR SIDE.EVEN WITH HIM CONVINCING YOU SHE WAS JUST AN EX BUT YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP, HIS OR NOT HIS EX YOU ARE JUST SOMETHING PAST FOR HIM.WAKE UP!"

Than took medicine and read a book untill 6 plus. Had a sleep. An called, but told him i have no mood to talk as something happen and he left me to be alone. Maybe he will be calling again maybe he's not. Whatever it is i just have no mood to talk. I've been so down today. I cried again and again. Tears rolls down silently. Anyway, the book i'm reading is also a sad one. STUPID HUSBAND OF HER! GO DRUNK AND HUG ANOTHER GIRL INFRONT OF HIS WIFE STILL DARE TO SCOLD AND SLAP HIS WIFE! FREAK SIA! haiz. im too carried away.

Anyway, than woke up. Mum was cooking dinner. My only meal today, dinner and a bowl of chicken soup. Wasnt feeling well today though so had to eat soup.

Now, i dont even dare to go to friendster. The reality there hurts me so much. Anyway, its okay. Life has to move on. Perhaps, he belongs to her. There's no way i can turn to make him mine once again. Its okay hidah. You are strong. You are still young. Make a lesson to be learn aite? Be extra careful in future. Hold on to yourself instead of falling for others help. You've got everything. Love, care and more love from your family. WAKE UP! You aren't losing anything. KILLING OR HURTING YOURSELF WONT HELP! masya-ALLAH.

Kay lah. i've type enough. i better get going. bye people.

REMEMORISE-

Sometimes i sit alone,
Wondering why things has to go,
I dont know why i'm not strong,
Since the day you're gone;

You compared yourself to him,
And i realised it was me,
Push the blame to me now,
Don't feel the guilt anymore;

I rememorise the love,
Could see the smile of yours,
I shed my tears,
All i could wish was you to be here;

I rememorise the pain,
Could feel the break,
The love was strong,
But why was i so weak?;

If your love aren't for me,
Just please make that her happy,
And before i'm gone,
I wanna hear the very last song;

And..Dear if you could rememorise,
Tell me i've been forgiven,
Look into my eyes,
And promise me you will never hate me.

[A POEM MADE BY ME FOR MR CLARENCE THAM]

i'm feeling VERY sick

HELLO!

rawrr! didnt attend school today. I was feeling damn sick lah. Doctor gave me 2 days of MC and a lot of medicine. haiz.

Today begin with a message from him. He wanted to give me a morning call but i dont allow too as he need rest mahh. But he gave me a morning message instead. I mean, the volume of mine handphone is enough to wake me from even a deep sleep (at times). Anyway, ya, wake up and started to wash up and everything. Suddenly, i was like so dizzy. And mum told me not to go to the school. So ya, i didnt went to school. Hmm. Message him telling him that i aren't going to school and he started to worry. Ya, than message him untill 9 plus.

After messaging him, i had a sleep. Was feeling damn cold. ): ! While sleeping, An called up to check upon me. Well, he knows im having fever and a very bad stomach pain. Hmm. So, ya talk to him for awhile and went back to sleep. Haiz. Around 11 plus mum wake me up to get ready to go to the clinic.

Than reach at clinic around 12. WOW so damn many people! Hmm. So, sat somewhere around the corner and was like dozing off. Was so sick can?! Haiz. Than the doctor gave me 5 medicine altogether. Oh shyts! Hmm. Plus 2 days of MC. The moment i receive a 2 days MC it means im so sick. HAIZ! Hmm. Than after that went to adik's school. Than went home.

At home, was watching tv in mum's room. Than An call up again to check up on me. We were talking so weird, An sounded sick, awww, he was caught in the rain. He miss my laugh. HOW WEIRD. haha! Anyway, didn't talk for long just awhile cause my stomach was pain back so decided to hangup and went for a sleep. So, slept for so long hours.Hmm. Wake up, handphone received 1 miss call and 1 message. Hmm. Than eat medicine. Now, blogging.

Kaylah toodles.
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im sick.

HELLO!

oh people! im sick! haiz. Body is so weak can? Hmm. Actually, it was from my stomach(most probably a gastric pain) than to fever, to cold, to headache to this to that. HAIZ! Woo, i realised, i didn't blog yesterday oh well, im tired.

Anyway, today was so boring. I hardly smile today. All along i'm feeling cold. Haiz. Suppose to go to the doctor today but in the end didnt make it. The clinic was close. Hmm. Never mind. Today went to kak ani's house for some kenduri. Hmm. I was helping out a little. Now, just reach home.

Im bored. Super bored. Im so weak. Super weak. ): !
An called just now and i sounded so sick can? HAIZ.
Hmm anyway, let me see, i might not be attending school tmrw.

HAIZ! I RE-NEED A PHOTOSHOP! IT IS ENDING IN 25 DAYS!! argh argh!

RACIAL HARMONY DAY!

HELLO!

Today school celebrates racial harmony day! (x !! hehe.
AWESOME! it is totally awesome lorr! Heeez! Hell took alot of pictures untill my handphone batt go low. hehehe!!

The racial harmony concert was not really as well done. Hmm. But overall, did enjoy. Hehe!
After school wanted to go vivo to take pictures with the usual people but nah all of our legs are aching due to high heels. hahaah! So, none did go and all went home.

Basically, thats for today. Hmm. Was doing the 44 template thingy. Finished it all up ready. Thank god. (: !

Now, my stomach is aching like hell !!! ARGH!

haiz.

K lah i got to go. TOODLES!

MICHELLE, I SEND YOU YOUR PICTURES SOON!

(: SOME PICS ARE SO NOT UPLOADED HERE. HAHAAHA!

WHAT HAD HAPPEN?

HELLO!

Hmm. HAIYO! Today had to bring the canvas to school. Its like so hard to carry it here and there. Hmm. Never mind. Anyway, first two periods was art. Mr tan told me to re do my drawing on the XXX thing. hahaha! Oh well, its like, i need to have the exact measurement for the exact things in order to make it look identical. Anyway, ya did only the XXX thing for 2 straight hours. WOO! Hmm. My eyes go ku ku sia! hahaha! Than all 5 of us were late for maths test lorr.

Hmm, anyway, did take the maths test but it was so hard. I did anyhow. HAIZ! Except for the graph. Which was the last question. Anyway, after maths was recess. Hmm. Was still talking about the racial harmony thingy tomorrow. (: ! Hmm. Okay. Than it was english. SAI! i slept almost the whole period lah! Hmm. Body is still aching, than got sudden headache. What the hell! Hmm. Than it was mother tounge. Okay. Lesson is interesting today. LAUGH ALL THE WAY. HAHAHA! (x !! FINE FINE! than it was POA. Again, i'm responsive. hahaha! (x

After school, went to collect my canvas which was left in the art room. Hmm. Mr Tan says its okay to bring it home as the rain wasnt heavy. It was just drizzling. (x ! So ya brought it home. Hmm. Took the MRT home with the canvas is rather pathetic. People's eyes were darting at you and the canvas. As though signaling they want to see what's in the black sheet of plastic. DUMB! hahaha!

Okay reach home around 3 plus. Hmm. Than was watching tv. While watching i fall into a deep deep sleep. HAHA! I wouldn't be waking up around 6plus if An didn't call me up. HEHE! (: ! Hmm. Okay Okay!

WHAT THE HELL!

im so excited for tommorrow!

hehehehe!

i better get going.

TOODLES!

BODY STILL ACHES! sian!

HELLO!

Woots! Today is still a sian day in school. Hmm. As usual. HAHA! Wah sai! Body still aching sia! What the bloody hell!

Okay Okay, first period was english. Did the proposal thingy. Not bad quiet a fast one though. Than, after english was maths. Hmm, did circles. And i was stuck haflway. Hmm.! Anyway, after that it was POA. I WAS SO SUPER RESPONSIVE CAN? hahaha! (x ! hehe. YEAH TEST WAS CANCEL UP TO NEXT TUESDAY. (x ! Hmm, but still tomorrow got maths test.! OUCH OUCH OUCH! hahaha! Hmm, kay. After POA was recess. Than after recess was mother tounge. Hmm LESSON WAS BORING. Anyway, after mother tounge was social studies. Hmm, well, sat with bing hui kor kor. He's an ass can? MAKE ME LAUGH! hahaha! The whole period was like laughing. Freak lah! My body is aching and he still make me laugh. HAHAHAHA! Than it was physics. Okay sian! Physics was super sian. )x ! hahaha!

After school, hidayu followed me home. Hmm, she was to help me to take picture for my art. (uploaded some above and edited). (x ! Than went to westmall with her to develop pictures to draw the picture on my canvas. WOOTS! i suppose to draw it now but i havent. hahaha! (x ! Hmm doing it later. hehehe! Oh my god! On the way to westmall, its like i met someone i never expected to meet lah. HAIZ! i was so like shocked lah! What the hell! Hmm. Whatever, i shall not talk about it lah. It makes me blood go upstairs! KAY!

FINE! Today i almost lost my wallet lah! FREAK! Luckily an auntie and her son saw it. They were looking and looking than i ran to them and her son was saying it was mine. (x !! CARELESS ASS RIGHT ME?! hahaha!

Hmm. Kay lah! i need to go. need to draw on my canvas. Haiz! TOODLES!

ACHING EVERYWHERE (x

HELLO!!

Today is very very cold. (: ! SIAN!

Fine! i was super super tired sia. My body is aching like hell lah! ASSHOLE! errrggh! Okay Okay. What a day, need to go to school by bus. As car was officially broke down. BLURR! Oh god, adik is so lucky can? She were to take bike with dad to school. ARGH! hmm. Oh whatever! Im nonsense-ing. ! hahaha! Hmm.

There's no assembly today. How cool! hehe. It was drizzling though. Hmm. Anyway, first period was geograhpy. But most of the period for geography was used by the survey thiny briefing. Hmm. Oh well, i almost doze off flat lah in the hall. Body is aching, weather so cold, so feel like catching a fever. Hmm! Anyway, than after the briefing went for geography lesson. Only a few minutes left though. Hmm! Woots! Than it was art. We get our canvas. Well, it is big enough to scared and makes me lose a little confidence. But mum says i can do it. 'I KNOW MY DAUGHTER CAN.' Isnt what mum says so sweet? I love her. (x ! Hmm, i already get the idea. Idea of Mr Tan actually. Hmm but i was to develope it. HAHA!

Okay, after art was Social Studies. Mdm Yehidah wasn't in school i guess. So a relieve teacher were in charge. Hmm. Well, work was given but none of us did. Haha! We were all so talking about the racial harmony thingy lah can? Haha! Hmm. (x ! WHAT THE HELL BLACK COURT SHOES? PLEASE LAH SCHOOL! WHY MAKE IT UNTILL SO SIAN? WE'LL USE OUR OWN HIGH HEELS LORR! PATHETIC! HAHAHA! Hmm. (: ! Anyway after Social Studies was recess.(x ! Hmm, ate rice today. RICE + 2 NUGGETS + POTATO SMASH + SMALL STINGRAY = $2.60 ! Hmm, well. Okay lah horr.! Hmm, was speaking LOUDLY about certain people. And i was like purposely. Hmm! Anyway, after recess was suppose to be CE but mine class was to do the survey thingy. SO LAME LORR! hmm. The care test thingy. Hmm, the answer is like all i dont know! HAIYO! hahaha! Hmm. Anyway, after the survey thingy, we have 1/2 period left for CE. so we have suganthi they all teaching joey how to wear SARI! mei qi was the doll! haha! SO SWEET LAH! (x !hee.

Last period for the day was chemistry. Hmm nothing much happen today for chemistry just that the screen was playing with mr murali. HAHAH! Hmm. After school, thought of following kelvin, udin and hidayu to the mcdonald near our school. But to think back, my body is aching, im carrying a canvas and im all tired, i decided to meet mum instead at clementi. Hmm. Than, mum brought me to make my house key. OH IM SO GLAD I HAVE A HOUSE KEY NOW SO EASY TO ACCESS HOME. haaha! Hmm. Than told mum, i might be borrowing hidayu's white pants as school don't allow to wear jeans. And mum goes like, 'BUY NEW ONE LAH! YOU SHORT STILL WANT TO BORROW FROM PEOPLE THAT'S TALL.' (x ! Haha.! So, mummy bought me a white pants but only can be collected tomorrow. (x ! Hmm.

Than reach home. I search for keychain for my keys. So i took out my 'BLACK TREASURE BOX'. Hmm, my eyes were wet i open it. How couldnt i? In the box, there's hell alot of memories about me and clarence. I have all the stuff he bought for me in there. Haiz. And i dig and dig, i found the FIRST EVER GIFT FROM HIM TO ME, A METTALIC 'HEART' SHAPE KEYCHAIN! Hmm, and i decided to use that for my key. Hmm. Its not easy to forget our memories lao gong. Really it isnt. )x !

Randomly, that's what happened today. Hmm. AND I AM SICK! COUGH+BODYACHE+COLDS=UNWELL! (x ! hhee. Were on the phone with An just now. Than he were talking to himself as i couldnt speak much as im not really well. He goes like take care horr cutie. HAHA! My voice is SEXY now okay. HAHAH! (x ! Than we were talking about his handphone got lost. And we talk craps about our handphone.

An: MY HANDPHONE GIRLFRIEND I!
Hidah:MY HANDPHONE BOYFRIEND I!
An: HAIZ. BUT MY GIRLFRIEND LEFT ME. I TREATED HER WELL.
Hidah: YOU'RE SO CARELESS.
An: HAIZ. ANYWAY, YOUR HANDPHONE BOYFRIEND YOU?
Hidah: YA. HE'S SO COOL. (laughing)
An: CAN I TALK TO HIM?
Hidah: CAN! HE'S NOT JEALOUS SEII!
An: (laugh out loud).

HAHA! idiotic are'nt our conversation! hahah! than after that, i change my friendster shoutout

--- MY HANDPHONE IS MY BOYFRIEND. CALL MY BOYFRIEND TO TALK TO ME. (x ---

Kay lah. i better get some sleep. body is still aching like hell. TOODLES. <3

so not my day. GRR!

HELLO!

Today is so an average day. (x

PHEWW! thought i would be like dead late to school but nah, fortunately i arent. (x ! How lucky! hee!!! (x

Well, well. Went to school by MRT from bukit batok. HERE IS HOW MY DAY STARTED! I took from bukit batok and transferred MRT at jurong east. Took the one heading to pasir ris. (x ! Oh hell, the MRT was cramp lah. Than it was like, i was squeezed in the MRT. And infront of me is a guy. Oh man, he bring his hand up holding the pole thingy at a very high position. And its like, his armpit is over pose.! HELL! i almost knock off sia! The smell was so 'nice' lah! (x !! hahahahahahaahaha!! And worst, his armpit gets nearer to my nose each time he move back. IM SHORT AND MY NOSE IS HIS ARMPIT LENGHT. imagine it? pheww! i tried my very best to hold my breath. (x

Than alighted at commowealth! WHOO! finall fresh air. HAHAHA! (x ! Okay Okay. Actually, i was accompanied to school by someone. Hmm. He insisted in sending me, so ya. Than, i couldn't really imagine, how can it be so weird this time round, i aren't holding his hand, he aren't hugging me anymore in the MRT to prevent me from falling but before he go this time round, he kissed me a goodbye. He could sense i'm not okay. He could understand i'm strange. But how could he when it was over between us? HAIZ! now i knw how much this is killing me. )x !!

Okay. Okay. Than meet hidayu than went to school. Haiz. Than, in school was exceptional fun! Hmm. Had maths for the first period. Hmm, new topic. CIRCLES! haha. Hazel is cute, rHs, H stands for HAZEL! kakaka! Okay. ENUF! haha. Than it was PE. Mr loh didn't come though. The whole class went to the hall and played badminton for 1 hour non stop. (x ! hee. Now, my hand is like cramping. Hmm, after PE was mother tounge. Did nothing. Just talk crap with aisyah, aziera and udin. (x ! Than it was recess, was told by hidayu to eat. hee! as i didnt take my breakfast mah. (x ! Hmm. kk! than it was chemistry. HELL! mr murali test us on the soluble and insoluble thingy! freak lah i was the last one to be standing alone. HAIZ! Hmm. Hehe. But being a good mr murali, he gave me a simple one. And i manage to answer. (x ! hehe. so i got the sit!! hehehe. (x !! Hmm, than it was english. We were late. Oh whatever. As usual, we were detained for don't know how long. SIAN!

After school, met mummy at clementi. Than, kakak came and fetch us. Than kakak was hungry so went to accompanied her eat chicken rice at clementi there. (x ! After that, went to far east to go shopping! (x ! haha! Bought a jeans. (x ! i so love the new jeans. hehe! (x ! Than spotted a blouse. Hmm, it somehow like a cheong sam lah (uploaded above). So bought it and decided to wear it on the racial harmony (x ! Hmm. Okay.

Than, went home. Got change and went out to the market. It was indeed quiet near my house. But kakak drove us there. Hmm. Mummy bought durians. (x YUMMY! haha. Ass, halfway through, the car broke down and it cannot move. So, ME, MY MAID & the DURIAN UNCLE pushed the car. Freak! After all the tired shopping, school in the end of the day still need to PUSH the car. Haiz! hehe. Than, manage to push the car to a position so that it won't block other ways. And called dad. Than dad came down and me,mum,adik and my maid went home. (x

Hmm, halfway through on the way home, An called. (x ! Hmm, so talked to him. Than hangup. Than he called again. (x ! Than he was busy, he got to hangup awhile. Than he called. Now, we have to hang up as my handphone batt is low. And, i have to charge it at mum's room. hehehe! (x !!

And now, stuck in here blogging.

PHOTOSHOP CANNOT BE INSTALLED. NEED SERIAL NUMBER. HAIYO! I SO DISSAPOINTED! )x ! haiish.

a bad day to start

HELLO!

Day started bad today. Had mum nagging. My fault anyway that she nags. Hmm. Uh, don't wish to talk about it.

Anyway, today went to madrasah, kinda late lorr. Hmm. Late for about 1 hour. Oh whatever. Nothing much happen at madrasah today lahh. Just so so so so so bored. Heez. (x !! Just that watch the 8 minutes video clip shoot by the BELIA (: ! Hmm, the content is okay. Just that, the moral they trying to show is a little to limited. And the close up is totally really close. The sound is lagging too. Hmm. Anyway, they did a great job afterall. Nice editing and nice content for the 8 minutes video clip competition. GOOD LUCK GUYS! marha! marha! (: !! Insya'allah will win. (: !

Than after madrasah called mum to pick me up. Before that exchange numbers with siti nabila, a very very very old friend of mine. Hopefully, we can hangout again soon. (: !hee.!! Hmm, after that, mum went to clementi. Waited for my aunt, she went to the clinic due to her sensitive skin thingy. Oh well. Hmm.

Perhaps, after this i might be going to THIS FASHION with my aunt or perhaps going to buy my racial harmony costume. KISHES to daddy for the MONEY!

TO JOEY: PLEASE REMEMBER TO BRING THE PHOTOSHOP CD (: I NEED IT SOON. SO I CAN GET THE 44 TEMPLATES DONE FAST (: ! THANKS DEAR. WILL MESSAGE YOU AGAIN TONIGHT. HEEZ.

OH SHITS! (: another random day.

HELLO!

Pictures uploaded was another random outing day with those peeps. (: ! Me, hidayu, udin, rasul Omar and Ya rasul (: !! Hmm.

Okay lah, first went to met hidayu at clementi. Suppose to go to queensway. (: ! Hmm, manage to get a shop for the class tee. But than, i need to get ready altogethere 44 templates for the tee shirts. (: ! Hmm. Than ya rasul message hidayu up asking if we want to meet him, udin and rasul omar at Plaza Singapura.So, ya went to meet them after settling the class tee things. (: ! O, the shop owner is so kind can? i so love the service. hee.!

Hmm, than at queensway bought a necklace. (: ! i love the necklace. SO MUCH! heee.! Than met the 3 of them at plaza singapura. Hmm. Than, me, udin, rasul and hidayu hangout at the dhoby ghout mrt station while ya rasul go and watch anugerah thingy. KINDA BORED LAH THE ROADSHOW. err.! Hehe. After one hour of hanging out at the mrt station there, the 4 of us decided to go and eat at plaza singapura. (: ! Than, we walk walk at plaza singapura. Around 4+, me, hidayu, udin went home while rasul go meet his friend and ya rasul still watching the anugerah roadshow. SIAN! haha!

Randomly, the pictures are some stupid actments and candid photography. hahaha!

I better get going. TOODLES. <3

another MRT incident. ):

HELLO!

School is kinda okay okay lah today. Hmm. (: ! First period was chemistry, mr murali went through preparations of salts. (: ! Hmm, it is so hard can when it comes to do the equation thingy? Oh shitss! Anyway, after that, it was mathematics. Suprisingly, i did my work with full attention. HAHA! so did joey and mei qi. (: !! Except for a few ppl beside me, laughing, kinda irritating though. Hmm. Never mind. (: !

After maths was TPI, continued reading my current novel i am reading. Than it was recess. Hmm, didnt eat anything heavy though today. Than went back to class. And i showed hidayu how 'he' reacts in my dream, i remember he says, 'abg like you.' OH MAN!! haha. (: ! And hidayu was laughing again and again. What the hell! (: hehe.! Than talked to ah gong about anugerah. Hehe. FUNNY LAH! Hehe.

After recess was english, copied a hell of notes for the proposal and its like my paper turnt out to be no space left for extra more notes but i squeeze here and there. HAHA! Than, it was POA. Miss choo covered one question, it was a bit easy this time round. (: ! As usual, homework was given i will do it soon. (: ! HEHE. Hmm.

Than after school went to jurong point with some people. (: ! And it was like, while waiting for the mrt, they announced tht there was a mrt accident. We dont quiet exactly know where it happen but i figured out from mum, it was clementi. According to her, someone jumped into the track. Hmm. How terrible? When will this ever stop? Haiz.!

Hmm, than after that, went home by bus, taking 174. And it was like, oh shit lah!!!!!!! On my left was a couple, infront of me was another couple. They were like so happy. And it is so so so so painful for me lorr. Than decided to message li yan jie and we dragged talking about my first date with him and sorts of things. haiz. Hmm.

Anyway, i think it was till here. I got to go. (:

PS: YESH! hidayu is accompanying me tomorrow. hehe. (;!!

a day at home is kinda disturbing.

HELLO!

First of all, i didnt went to school today. Kinda not feeling well as yesterday night cried to much and there's alot to settle at home. Hmm. Well, woke up kinda early today though. Went to the clinic and manage to cover myself with MC. And it was like usual, medicine was given. Its like the medicine will make me doze off lah. Haiyo! Hmm.

Okay! At home did almost nothing. Only that i slept for a few hours after eating my medicine in the afternoon. Than woke up, read almost up to 19 chapters of the novel im currently reading. Well, the story gets interesting each chapter. (: ! hehe. Well, honetly, it brought back the memories back to me. But at least the book manage to make me busy at times. Hmm. Than did my english composition and stuck into the blog. (: !

Tomorrow adik is going to be wearing cheong-sam am i right? I mean the spelling. hehe. Hmm, anyway, she's wearing it to school due to racial harmony day celebration. Well, mine school celebrates it next week. Hmm. Just wonder why! Hmm whatever.

Oh well, friday is tomorrow. NO chemisrty test. How sudden news. Hehe! Anyway, its like saturday is the day after tomorrow. I need to go and do some pricing survey for the class tee. (: ! Hmm, but i might be going alone as hidayu might not be able to come along and i dont know why. Perhaps, i shall just go alone or with mum or ya alone. Hmm!

Kay lah, thts it for today. I got to go. Bye!

NO FILMING AT LAST

HELLO!

School today is super boring lah can?!! Hmm first period was english. Held in the trainee room. Haiyo! Kinda cold. HEHE. Hmm, english lesson isn't that bad lah. We did some composition and explaination on proposal. (: !! Next it was social studies.!!!! Oh my gosh, i slept halfway through the lesson lah. So boring lah the topic for social studies this time round. Hehe. (: ! Hmm after that was physics, okay lah the lesson. Afterall mrs ong did make us laugh a little here and there. (: !

Than it was recess. Hmm eaten something. Than waited for hidayu to do her canteen duty. After recess was geography. lesson was boring but a few of us at the back was laughing all the way till the end of the lesson hehe. (: ! Just to many reasons that makes us laugh lah seii. Hehe! Hmm, after that was CE. Teacher wasnt in school. While waiting for the relieve teacher to come in, me and the rest continued laughing. Hehe. Half way through, there was a scary fight happened. Though, everyone was silence and a few guys help to stop the fight. Luckily, it stopped. Hmm! Than after that the relieve teacher came in. (: ! But she relieve only for 1/2 hr, and the other 1/2 hr was relieved by another teacher. (: ! Oh by this time, all of us were playing the clapping hand thing. hehe! (: ! Hmm.. random trend of a new lame game. HAHA! (: !!!

After school, was suppose to go do filming but nah, last minute it was cancel as yi ming forgotten to bring his video camera. Hmm. So, no filming was made. Hmm.! So, went home. Than bath and went to westmall to develop several room pictures for art and now updating my blog. I think i might consider a several hours of afternoon sleep so at night i will do my sketches and stuff. (: !!

PS: oh my!!! it is like i dont know how many time i dream of that him already lah! and weird was, i never stead or ever i have the sense of wanting him to be my stead lah! hmm.. wonder!

TIRED! (:

HELLO!

Today was kinda a fun day lah horr. Cause i almost did everything i have to do. (: ! hehe. (: (: !!
Many fun had happened today. (: !

Okay it was POA for the first period. Well, it was rather a boring one but nah, i paid full attention! YESSS!!!! (: Hmm. I did my work for POA! yes!! yes!! yes!! hahahaha!! What the hell, the craziness is still in me?! hahaha! Okay Okay.!Than it was art. Did a few sketches (uploaded above). Hmm. Arent really thinking its nice. Hmm.! At least an effort. (: !

Than it was maths. Nothing could hardly sink into my brain for maths today. Mrs gan is so fast lah. Hmm i kinda struggle just now for maths and so, my table and myself was in messed. hehe. (: !! Hmm. Than it was recess. (: ! Didnt went for recess and i do my geography. Redoing my geography exactly. (: !! hehe.

After recess was physics. Mrs ong went through the 60 MCQ question papers. (: ! Well, kor was sitting beside me and he was like one freak lah! hehe. So irritating. Hehe! Sleep and sleep.! hahahaha!!! Than never mind lah seii. HEHE! After physics was english. (: !! Was doing major swopping for the composition. Hmm. (: !!

Than after school was suppose to do several shooting for the YES challenge team prodcut. Hmm. But than, it was cancel in the end as hui deng couldnt make it so, stayed back with them and gave several comments on their presentation skills. Oh my god, it is so professional base can? hehe! Afterall it is all about a business selling its idea to another company something like that. HMM. Than when the team was doing their powerpoint slides, me and hidayu was rather FLOODING MY TAGBOARD! haha! We were like communicating to each other via my tagboard. And my tagboard is so full with all craps of me and her. HAHA! (: !! hmm.

After the staying back thing, went home. STRAIGHT HOME. (: ! At home, slept for a few hours and was woke up by dad. And did english homework untill 8.30pm. Than watch anugerah. PLEASE LAH I WAS SWEARING WHEN EVER I SEE ROSLAN! SO PATHETIC! GRRRRRRR!!! ARGHHH!!! GRRRRMMM!! GRRRRR!!! HAIZ! He shouldnt be in! Whatever! Hehe. Than now watching janji diana and blogging.

Kay lah i got to go now. (: !!

PS: class tee responsibility was fully given to me. I shall get the details as soon as possible people! (: !! No dissapoinment for the management heads. (: !! hehe.

and im so happy

;ME AND MY SISTER> SHE'S ADORABLE ALL THE TIMES! (:

;HONESTLY,I LOVE THIS. DO YOU? ! hee !

;A REFLECTION OF MINE TAKEN BEFORE MOVIE. LOL. ! (:

HELLO!

pictures updated! i found my usb back. (: !!

Today is so cool can? I so love today. (: ! At least, i manage to stay laughing and smile. (: ! Oh well.! Hmm today was begin with religious class. Well, religious class was interesting today.(: ! As usual, did some work for uztaz. (: ! And kinda pissed off with two girls in the class, kinda naughty. Oh whatever. HEHE! Than after class waited for kakak for a few hours i guess and went home.

At home, was reading a malay novel. Just to keep myself busy at times. (: ! Hmm, half way reading, got into a sleep. Hehe.! Than woke up, kakak says she wanted to go to marina square. (: ! I was so like, an outing? SURE! To help me recover. hehe!

So ya, when to marina square. Than did some shopping, eaten early dinner at swensens as we were to catch a movie around 18:05 ! Freak lah, we given different timing ticket. Kakak asked for 18:05 movie but the guy gave kakak 17:05 movie. And its like so whatever! The guy is so rude lahh! Hmm. Anyway, after that we manage to get our rights for the ticket for 18:05 movie. And guess what we watch, HARRY POTTER AND THE ORDER OF PHOENIX!! It was like, my second time for it and my first time was like only on last friday. HAHA!

Well, got the sit 2nd row from the front and its like my neck is kinda painful. However, i had a great time watching it lah. Except that half way through the movie, suddenly got someone snorring lah seii! I superly cant take his snor lah. So disgusting. GRRR!! He slept untill the movie ends lah. Than once the movie ends, people was like, 'SO HE WAS THE ONE!' Haha.! He is utterly embarrassing himself, utterly! hehe.! He didnt even wake up untill everyone make noise. Freak people.! HAHAAHAHAHAH! But really the sound of his snorring is so loud and freakishly disgusting! LOL!

Okay now, im back here at home. (: ! Comfortly updating my blog. Sharing my happiness of today. Hmm!

I SO LOVE TODAY!!!!!! (: (: (: (: !!!

happy birthday liyan!! (:

HELLO!

haiya! i so couldn't focus lah at school. WHY???!!! Everything he told me yesterday was so fresh. Haiz. People in class was talking about their happy relationship just now, and it all reminded me to happy times i am with him. And i cried, nobody see. Haiz. If only i could turn back and explain things to myself and understand what i need. Honestly, i feel weak without him. Perhaps, i had love him sooo sooo sooo much. My phone message inbox isn't has his name anymore. My miss call, received call and dialed number log has no his name. I feel so broken at times. Oh my god, this is so killing me. Argh!

I shall move on to what happened today. For periods before recess was somehow like a free period for me as 3/4 of mine class went for their term 3 Express Mathematics Paper 2. Well, i start day dreaming about him that time. Haiz. Well, after recess was POA and Physics. So no mood to focus. Haiz. Especially POA. I don't know why. Hmm. Haiz. Pheww. Anyway, during physics it was kinda fun. Kor bing hui was assign to do 1 week floor duty. Good lah who ask him throw paper balls at almost everyone in the class?! Somemore the chairperson and management head is sitting infront of him. dumb dumb kor!!! Hehe. (:

After school, went home than get change. Met hidayu and gabriel at clementi to go and meet li yan, shu wen, yee ting at town. (: ! Me, hidayu and gabriel wait for the three of them at cineleisure while the three of them go seoul garden at takashimaya and eat their lunch. Oh talking about lunch i havent taken any meals from morning till now. Hmm. Okay, than went to watched movie, harry potter and the order of phoenix. The movie is so fun lah. (: ! Hmm, after that saw couples walking infront of me, and it reminded me of him!!! ): ! Oh well, after movie, take a couples of pics with li yan than went to take neoprints when li yan went to marina square to meet her parents. (: ! Than bought a tee shirt than went home. (: ! Reached home late and mum give me hell. ): ! And suprisingly, she kinda accused me lah. Well, i did talk back cause i couldnt control. Than i went to the toilet and hited my head against the wall for several time. I just wonder, if only he is here for me like before. Haiz. But please, i should learnt to control my emotions better. Haiz. Now, its like i'm not talking to anyone. Haiz. I've tried to explain why but no one seems to want to listen to me. Anyway never mind. pheww.

Oh anyway, pictures are yet to upload as i lost my HP usb cable and i couldnt transfer the pictures to my laptop and i dont know how the hell to use laptop's bluetooth. hehe! (: ! K lah, i got to go lah. Bye people. (: !


HAPPY BIRTHDAY LI YAN JIE! (:

i slept for most of the periods in school.

HELLO!


Okay this is sucks okay! I will lost my focus for him! ERR! Tell me why is it so hard? Give me the strength to move on my life like when he is there for me. Bring me to normal. But don't make me forget the memories of happiness and pain. ): !



Oh well, whatever. Anyway, it was ART for the first 2 periods. Well, it is like that i draw mei xuan almost for a few hour. Hehe. Her face is so dam hard to draw lah. Especially her lips. Than after i drawn mei xuan jie, i draw siew fang's bedsheet flower. Oh man! I haven't colour it yet. Hehe. I will do it soon. (: ! Okay after that i draw the figure at wen yan's pencil box. And i superly love the drawing. (: ! Hehe. Okay Okay!!



Oh than it was maths. I bloody hell doesn't know what has going on for maths. I was like sleeping for the whole period. My focus was running to him. ): ! Anyway, i was having my monthly stuffs too so its like cramping stomach. AS A GIRL! uuuhh! Than it was recess, so its like i didnt went to the canteen instead i slept in class. (: ! hehe.

After recess was english. Oh gosh, i really cant believe it i just couldnt do what i am suppose to! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I copied every bloody thing ms koh told to but i couldnt focus. What's wrong with me? I can tell i went silent for quiet a number of periods in school. A peace for crystal at times. LOL! Hmm. After english was mother tongue. Well, dont bother to ask cause i've been sleeping. LOL! Hmm. Than it was POA!. I did pay some attention for POA or i shall say i didnt? HAIZ! However, half way through the lesson, i disturb crystal. Hehe! I talk all bullshits and craps. (: ! Hmm.

After school, went to jurong point with hidayu. Bought some items and i subscribe for popular student card which i lost $5. Hehe! (: Anyway, after that took 174 and went home. (: ! Mum wasn't at home and i have no key as my key is broken. HEHE! So, i waited for mum under the block and bloody shit the 'people' was so noisy man! totally! I just couldn't bother to speak up i was too tired anyway. So than mum came. And went up.!

OH YA! On the way to jurong point i was like pissed off. I bought a porky strawberry flavour. And i ate it up to the mrt platform i mean hey i am hungry okay. So, its like i eat it. Its like i didnt mess the mrt place. And the lady, just came to me and 'ape ni? ape ni?' I just walk off and she stopped me when the train is already arrived. Come on, its not like i'm eating one big packet of rice down there. I'm eating a biscuit which probably make NO MESS! Haiz. Than i let my hand go from her hand and walk away from her. She wanted to bring me down for some disciplinary action and i was like what so ever and took the train before she could stop me the 2nd time.

GRRRR!!! Okay lah i got to go. (: ! I suggest when they say NO FOOD state down what KIND OF FOOD! So it will be clearer.

SOME ASS PEOPLE!

another day at school.

HELLO!

Hmm. Today went to school as per normal. (: ! Just that i forgotten to bring my thermometer. And i had to pay $5 for one simple thermometer. Haiz. CARELESS ME! ass lah!! ): !! Than witness a few punishment for a few student. Well, i dont quiet know what happen either because i was so into the thermometer. LOL!

Okay, it was english for the first period. Well, miss koh gave the marks for oral. I scored 29 over 40. Hmm. I went nonsense about the zoo thingy where i last go was when i was primary 4 or 3. Oh shitty! HAHA!! (: !! Than it was maths. The teacher wasn't in school. So i went so sad. ): !Siew Fang realise it i guess and she asked me but i say 'NO'.. but the real thing was i was thinking about him. I almost cried but pretended to be sleeping. And my mood to study just couldn't focus untill POA lesson. And i learnt nothing for half of the day. ): ! I dont know why he always appear when i am alone. Haiz.

Recess i was siting with my jie-s and i begin to laugh and laugh and laugh! Than after recess, it was mother tounge. SIAN! took malay listening comprehension practice. (: ! After that was social studies, took realibility test and this time round i don't know why when i think of him during the test, i have the confidence that my answer can at least give me marks. And it makes me continue writing. Haiz. Pheww. Than it was physics, well our mrs ong, asked us about our homework and i didn't get it done. So i admit lah nehh. So, she continued with the magnetism topic as almost half of the class didnt get the homework done. Hmm.

Than after school went to clementi to have lunch with hidayu. (: ! Than it was like, both of us ate mcwings. (: how nice!!! Hehe. Than mummy call and call and call. I can hear her and she say she cant her me when i keep on shouting HELLO AND HELLO! LOL! Afterall, i find out i need to off my handphone and on it back. LOL! Than called mum with hidayu's handphone and to find out she already at clementi mrt station waiting for me to go johor bahru. (: !

Than went to johor bahru. Went to get kakak's customer's stuffs than went to have dinner at singgah selalu. Oh i love the nasi goreng kampung. HAHA! So spicy and hot hot hot! ((: ! Oh whatever.! Haha! Than we went to city square. Well just to end our day shopping there. (: ! Oh i bought a motivation board and a black handbag (: !!! OH mine i shall use it when i'm going to Li Yan birthday party. ((: !! PRECISELY I CAN'T WAIT FOR FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!Haha.


I WANT FRIDAY!! I WANT FRIDAY!! LOL! ((: !!!! muackkkssss!!

ouch my leg hurts seii!!

HELLO!!

Haiz. Didnt went to school today. My leg was so painful untill i had fever! How sian!!! ): !!! I dont know if i will be going to school tomorrow or am i not. As i will be seeing the doctor later in the afternoon today. Haiss.

Day is so bored today. Went to clementi paid billed than met my uncle. Oh gosh i misss him so much man. I couldnt regconise him actually but he could. Hehe. He is so so so different lah now. Hehe.! (: !! Than went to mei's school. Than went home. ): !

Boring!!! Im so sicked! Haiz.!!!!!

YOU WILL NEVER UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL UNLESS YOU ARE TREATED THE SAME.

it was the last meet ):

Hello!

Met him for the last time just now. Well, it hurts me though. Why does something i treasure comes into an end? Perhaps, i just should let things go peacefully. To you, i'm sorry. It hurts me too to see you go just like that. There wasn't your last kiss. There wasn't your last hug. Where all i want was your last kiss and hug. ): !! But you did hold my hand for the last time. Thank you for that. Goodbye and happy birthday.

Haiz. Day in school is kinda sucks. Just before school starts i had a fall lah seii! ): !! I sprained my ankle. And my knee were bleeding. Oh well, it is painfull. ): ! But lucky, my beloved hidayu is there to help me and my 4b2 is also so caring! ((: !! Hehe. But dam pain lah sia the leg. OUCHH!!
Ass man!

Pheewwwwww!!!!!!! Haiyo! finally, my class has moved to the bloody crampy classroom at the ground level because one of our classmates is not able to climb up the stairs. Pity him but hate the classroom lah so bloody ass small lah. Haiz. Never mind, afterall lessons still been conducted as per normal. ((: !

Thats it for today. ARGH! I CANT WAIT FOR FRIDAY! hehe. ((; !!

sunday and its bored!

;SHE IS SO EXCITED THAT I KISSED HER!

;THE ONE & ONLY ME! ((: !! so bored!

HELLO!!!! HELLO!!!!

Oh mine gosh! I'm so dead bored lah seii! It is a perfect sunday today yet it's a boring one for me. ): !!

As usual, went to madrasah, than went to ngaji, than went home. At home took several pictures, which was actually only two lahh seii! hehe. ((: !! Thn sleep. How sickening! hehe.

Pheww, i'm still so tired lah! Yesterday walk so much! But yesterday is still the greatest day lahh! It will never be forgotten. Which i spent my whole afternoon with my eldest sister! There's sister shopping, sister talk, sister lunch and most of all sister love.!! ((: !!! Hmm.

Actually, will be going out later to kak siti's place. To attend to farouq's birthday party. ((: !! At least i will be meeting my cousins there. Just hoping mak andak will be there. ((: !! Cause she usually is working. hmm.! ((: ! Kay lah, i got to go. Tata!

what a very very tiring day!

;ALONG bought me this necklace. ((: !!

;it looks small but its GIANT! ((:

;Hows the belt?? CLUMSYPRINCESS owes that belt. ((: !

;JUST BEFORE I WENT TO ADIK'S MARINA BAY NDP PARADE PERFORMANCES! ((: !!

HELLO!!!!

Oh my gosh! It is indeed a very tiring day today! Well, as i mentioned before, i went to marina bay for NDP full day rehearsal preview. ((: ! It was awesome, though some people just make me and my eldest sister (along) frustrated! Oh whatever! Hmm. Anyway, reach home nearly 12 today! Well, a day spent with just my eldest sister is all i ever wanted. Hmm and its very great!

Well, befoer we head to marina bay, we went to meet my bro in law at his workplace first. Hmm. Just to pass him the car key! Initially, we were suppose to pick him up from work and he will dropped us at suntec city than from suntec we walk to the NDP temporary stadium. However, there's time delay in his dismissal timing. So me and my sister decided to went there by cab. (: ! Before that we went to have our lunch at fish & co. And guess what, sister ordered jungle freeze and i ordered mermaid freeze. OH MY THE FREEZE CUP IS SO SO SO GIANT! Me and sister only manage to finish it only half a cup, by force! hehe. ((: ! We had a brain freeze after that! LOL!We alighted at RC (... carlton?) i forgotten the spelling. hehe.! Anyway, its a hotel. hehe! Than we WAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLKKKKKKKKK a very very very long way to the temporary stadium! Oh my god.!!

Anyway, the walking is so no problem. Oh ya, i met cikgu rossa.! She went to watch it too! I shouted her name like i never met her before.! LOL! Anyway, me and sister manage to get a sit but it isnt a perfect sit as we were kinda blocked by the cameraman! So, never mind. We manage to handle. Only that after a few hours we were like arguing and stuffs due to unrespectful answering by some people.Oh my gosh! PLEASE DO NOT MISS THIS YEARS NDP!! It is so so so so so awesome. Cant tell you much too!

Afterall, me and sister didnt catch the parade up to finale. We left after my younger sister peformance and a few more performances. We went to Marina Square. (: !! As we were window-shopping we end up shopping. hehe! Well, we bought a birthday present for Li Yan, a yellow heart necklace for myself and a strawberry shortcake bag for eldest sister. hehe!! Besides that i bought 1 t shirt and sister bought 2 t shirts. Besides that i bought one nike water bottle and sister bought one pair of nike slippers. Before we head home, we at our supper at secret recipe. ((: ! HEHE! ((: !! Thn, we headed to search for the taxi stand to go home!!! ((: !! But, we end up walking ONE BLOODY BIG ROUND TO GET TO MARINA SQUARE TAXI STAND! We went through pan pacific hotel, suntec city, esplanade just to get to the marina square taxi stand and we end up calling the cab. LOL! ((: !!

And thats how i ended being so tired! hehe!! ((: !! Goodnite!

happy happy birthday dian!

GOOD MORNING!!
haha, its not really a good morning though, it should EXCELLENT MORNING!!!! hahaha! Oh gosh! why am i so hyper and bloody happy today? haha!!

Hmm, yeah!! Finally its today. I'm gonna going to witness the performance of CLEMENTI PRIMARY SCHOOL students (which ultimately involved my younger sister).! Yesh yesh yesh!! But i kinda heard the rain drizzling here at bukit batok, oh i will pray hard it isnt at marina bay.! Hmm! Oh well, i pray hard and harder. (: !!!

BLOODY ASS! i cannot put my links into my bloggie!! D: !!! Hmm, never minf the problem will be solved sooner or later! Hehe!!!!!!

Okaylah, i better get going. Toodles loved ones! TAGGED ME TAGGED ME!!!

HAPPY HAPPY 16 BIRTHDAY DIAN!! ((:

What a day!

Pheww.!
What a day! I was required to stay back by miss choo for the YES challenge meeting today. Well, i did attend today for the meeting. Hmm so did joey, mei qi and joanna. However, Joanna went home earlier than me, mei qi and joey did. ): !! Hmm, anyway, jeremy position was suppose to be replaceed by Suganthi, but just not at a proper time, jeremy decided not to pull his words. He is still in the group! (: !

Anyway, back to the meeting. Miss choo required all the four of us to go and do some research of new inventions and think about one from ourselves as all this YES challenge thing is about creativity of students and the invention of the students. (: ! So, me, joey and mei qi were kinda sit together and work together while joanna with her best friend suganthi, also do researching but not together with us. Never mind. LOL! Hmm, anyway, me, joey and mei qi had a brilliant idea =p ! we decided to make markers that can be wrote to t-shirts and it is erasable to the extent that the consumers does not need to wash the t-shirt each time they design wrongly or what so ever. Mr murali is willingly to help us, however, miss tan says the idea is a not bad idea but it is hard to make it into a physical product with only apparatus at the school lab. So, we were told to change the idea. GRRRR!!!! Its like, 'not again!'

After meeting when to meet mum, sisters, my maid and bro in law at queensway shopping center. Hmm, i was gladly walking here and there at queensway shopping center untill i feel so so so lazy. HEHE! I finally got the sandal i've been wanting for long lah seii! How happy! hehe.! The person that shops alot today is my bro in law and my younger sis. And surprisingly, i shop the cheapest of all. My sandals only cost my sister $20. hehe! its quiet chip to compare to the one at town, cost $59.90 ! Hmm, big different and a big money involve. haha! After the shopping, went to get dinner for dad and went home.

I'm like super tired lah. Very tired! I think because i was trapped into that nice cold room yet torturing after school. HAHAHAHAHA! Whatever!

Kay lah got to go.!
AND I CANT WAIT FOR TOMORROW EVENT:
[1]go suntec city
[2]watch my younger sister performance at marina bay (NDP full rehearsal) !!

JIA YOU MEI!!! MUACKKSSS! ((: