I LOVE MY FAMILY. Thanks mama, ayah, along, abang, adik and bibik.


They surprised me with an ice-cream cake from swensens today (though my birthday is like tomorrow). It really makes my day. While eating the super delicious cake, i decided to tell them what had recently happen in my life. As usual, tears starts to stream down.

Dad and Mum gave me a couple of advice that makes me realise that i'm not at any wrong position. Neither is he. They told me that maybe god just want us to be this way. There's always the good thing behind a bad thing -dad said. I uphold to his words.

What touches me the most is .. My maid cried with me when she saw me crying. I love her to the bits. I love her. She's part of me now. :D

Oh, i must tell you this!

THE WHOLE FAMILY gave me one present that i'm freaking happy about! LOL!
And it's itouch 2nd generation. OMG! I was like... is this real or is this fake?! HAHAHA.
But, hey it is real. :D


THANKS everyone. Thanks once again.
Again, a birthday that super meaningful to me despite of the sadness i'm in.


I LOVE YOU ALL!

Having fever is seriously uncool.

Oh, i got work to do.
But i can't continue it today.
-.-
My body is just not responding to it.
I will do it tomorrow then.

God, please help me. Let me do this. Please.

Currently in school, just ended my Game Concept Project (GCP). Waiting for dad now.
Alone.

Today i had a rough day. A very veyr rough day.
Cried like nobody's business today.
I cried eveyrthing out to Bestea (Abid) and also Arie Dear.
It all happen after i received a message from SW.
His message is fucking irritating -Frankly.
Thinking of it just makes me wanna cry out loud again.
Then after that, another incoming call from SY.
After that, another message from CTMY.
I just dont know why i felt that the questions is making me super frustrated and disappointed.
It's like there's a 20kg stone on top of my head.
I mean, my head was freaking heavy all the way today that i couldn't really concentrate on my work.
Is this the way he fullfill his promise?
Why can't he understand?!
Call me anything you want people, anything.
Selfish? Self-centered? Annoying? Ungrateful?
But ultimately, i'm suffering.
Does you people knows that?
DO YOU?!
You think asking him a break up is making me happy?!
Oh, you're wrong people.
If he thinks he have to start adapting a life without me? So am i.
I have to adapt a life without him.
Blame me?!
My fault.
Oh well. If that's what make you people happy, then let it be.
Whatever the reasons you people have for the break up, it's your own interpretation!
Okay?! Cause only me knows the real reason to it.
ONLY ME!
Hey, hello. It's not easy being me.
Who is pleasing EVERYONE ELSE AND FORGETS TO PLEASE MYSELF?!
No, not blaming him.
But just tell me, is it fair?!
Is it fair for me??? IS IT?! TELL ME NOW?!
I please my parents -by telling lies to him.
I please him -by telling lies to my parents.
So who's pleasing me?
Hey you think it's fun swimming in a pool of lies? YOU THINK SO?!
Ya, weak -Maybe that's the right word.
But the battlefield has to end.
Enough is enough for me.
So people, i think it's enough.
Being me was never easy. OKAY?!
Thanks. Im sorry.

I FELT _______!

IF ONLY I CAN DELETE SOME PARTS OF MY LIFE THAT'S TAKING SPACES IN ME.

Hello babyloves.

I'm freaking tired now.

Anyway, please take this survey if you happen to be in here. (:
It's for my end of semester project. Thanks.

http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=3ckaTlPvuNEGsXHfpfJcYw_3d_3d

PIXEL ART = FUN and at the same time TIRING.

The hair is supposingly nice, and it turn out like this. OMG!
Anyway, original picture (traditional art) is with me and the reference is from google.
:D

Hello babyloves. (:

First thing first, studio project has started. Few words to describe -Tiring, irritating and wonderful.
Tiring because we have to stay in school for like hours 9am to 6pm.
Irritating because it's like freaking tiring.
Wonderful because i'm doing the work IN SCHOOL and doing character designs plus research.
I think i'm doing a little. But, whatever. HAHA! I'm doing work for my group okay! I am.
Okay, enough.

WOOHOO!
Another outing with my usual peeps (Zac, Ke Yang, Daniel, Abid, Wee Theng, Candace and Arie). It's an early birthday celebration for me and Arie. Went to seoul garden right after Studio Project.

Everyone ate like freaking a lot! And, guess what we laugh a lot too. I love it.
Thanks again all!

(: See what i mean when i say, i'm blessed. HAHA.
People around me accept me for who i am not what i am. And that's the kind of friend i'm looking for. Thanks DG0903. :D







I better get going. Bye!! <3

Hello.

It's 0203. I just finished my super rough 2d GAME character and environment design.

Oh, i love yesterday.
Not the morning part, but the afternoon.
A very cool outing, even though i attended like half of the outing only. HAHA.
Movie was fun! (:

And and, buffet next Tuesday* as they planned to celebrate an early birthday for me as my birthday falls on the fasting month. I can't wait. :D ! I'm so excited! And, i feel that... i'm pampered. LOL!

You know, i felt like i'm being pampered everywhere i go.
By my family, Boyf, my LLSSHH girlf and even my DG0903.
I'm so blessed.
I swear i love them.


MUACKS!!!


Photoshoot outing with Fateha, Ayu and Fateha's friend tomorrow. Can't wait too. :D

The movie is HILARIOUS, AWESOME, EXCITING and ADVENTUROUS.

I love it.
Watched the 3D.
Was super nice!
The spectacle is cool.
I was thinking that i was allowed to bring it back home, but i was told to returned it. Sad.
But never mind.
I enjoyed the movie okay~~!

Oh, currently on a mission -going to save $2 per day.
:D !






BYEBYE loves.

Baked pizza today.

Sister was teaching me and i was like "MUST i learn?"
Was super lazy okay.
I mean it's SUNDAY babyloves.
It's SUNDAY!
Haha. But i end up learning it.
Great learning though.

Played couple of games in facebook.
Like Fish a Fish, Farmville, Country Story and Barn Buddy.
A little of pet society and i'm off to watch my Anime.
Currently watching Skip Beat Episode 10.
Sloowww i know.
Haha.

Now, planning to SLEEP before the parade start.


8.22pm , everyone recite the pledge together okay?!

SINGAPORE IDOL today. :D :D !

Bye.



HAPPY 44th SINGAPORE! I LOVE YOU.
Singapore is my homeland and always will be.
I love you Singapore.
To me you're the greatest and the best.
Once, my dad told me.. "Let's stay in Malaysia , Johor Bahru."
I cried out loud and told dad.. "No, i don't want to be there."
Cause deep in my heart, Singapore stays.
Nothing is better than Singapore to me.
Singapore is the place i always want to be.
I LOVE YOU!

Spent quality time with sisters today.
I love it.
Finally, i've bought my DESFUN assignment's tools -Markers.
Initially, i was thinking of using copic marker as suggested by Bruno.
Apparently, when i try using it (Bruno's) i end up destroying the piece.
Blurrr!
So i bought like ALL brand markers that are good to me and i wil try them on.
It's true being a designer is EXPENSIVE!
Haha.

Might be watching UP later.
Double happiness.
HAHA!

:D

Anyway, i've another blog which is a combined-blog of ME, AYU AND FATEHA.
Here's the link ,

http://the-beradiks.blogspot.com

Do visit.


HAPPY BIRTHDAY FATEHA!
Dah 18. Aku jek tengah tunggu ni. Haha.

Hello babyloves.

I'm done with the so called VAS monopoly presentation.
I felt good about it. However, my lecturers are not really happy with the way everything's done.
Oh well, maybe it's that they are expecting higher than what we are doing.
A little demoralised, but thinking of it.. it's not the way.
I mean, hey, of course our work can't be like perfect for at the very first time.
Just like Candace said, "If we're doing everything perfect for the first time, we are not called students."
And just like Miss Lum and Mr Soren said, "Treat it as a learning journey."
And just like how i want to believe, "If my is bad, there's someone else that's worse."
Okay, i'm nagging like non-stop.
Bare with me my loves, i'm like trying to calm myself down.
Let me put all those negative to a positive.
Alright? Yeah. That's the way.


Okay, back to life. I've not been sleeping for 2 whole days straight. I'm very exhausted now. My body is telling me i need to STOP doing work -Right Now! And sleep -Right NOW! But somehow, the comments from my lecturers awaken me. Oh well, maybe i just felt that there's still room for improvement for our group member -Especially me. Ya, ST1 is like coming. Improvement, more hard work. Oh well, stop it, i'm talking about school now. Oh shyt! Haha. Okay, currently school projects are left with POGD and DESFUN game poster.


Anyway, anyhow, i still feel the sense of achievement.

Tomorrow please come faster so i can forget today.

I'm tired. Very tired.

Monopoly is exhausting.
So is drawing.
Omg.

I feel that i will collapse anytime anywhere at this moment.

Oh god, help me please.

Mosquito still bites me when i told them ..

"Mosquito don't disturb me please. I'm doing my assignment. Please mosquito."

.. and i end up with 6 mosquito bites.

Sad Sad.