Okay, let me see...
Sunday is ending real soon. -.- !

I don't like it.
Urgh. Holidays is in 2 weeks time. It's like... long.

I have a list of things-to-do pinned up on my noticeboard.
So far none of the work is strike off from the list. I'm just not in mood to get work done.
My fever came back last night.
Wait, let me count. It's week 6 this week isn't it?
I'm left with week 7 and week 8 and i'm off for my 2 weeks of off duty from school. Can't wait.
So many dues on week 7.
I'm crapping my weekends with assignment once again. -.- !

Friday is excursion, and my peeps are having another meeting at IMM. I want to go and meet them, but excursion? Idiot! =.= !

I better get going.
Some work on that list have to be strike off.

So, it's Monday today and it's suppose to be Jimmy's class.
But i failed to attend, thanks to my throat condition and my slight fever feeling.
It's basically unbearable. My nights were disturbed, please.

Went to the doctor today and the doctor prescribed me with antibiotics, flu, fever and cough medicine. Homed after that, took above mentioned medicines and i slept all the way untill NOW!
Buay tahan. Sibei drowsy. -.- !

So the week for school ended.
Should i smile or should i be like no feelings due to the endless assignments?
Oh well, there's three words -I DON'T CARE.
Cause whatever the feelings right now, nothing will change the endless assignments to end-right-now assignments. =.= !

Let me summarise the week.

Monday , 18 05 09 :

Lecture.
mrJK's class -Drawing(perspective).
After school, lunch with Arie, Abid and Wee Theng.
Next, Taka's art friend with them, but without Arie.
Then off home.
:D

Tuesday , 19 05 09 :

No class basically.
But, i met my group member for POGD to finish up the project -Abid, Anban, Shu Wen and Emily.
Then, went home.

Wednesday , 20 05 09 :

Major thingy for the day -POGD's exe 3 submission due and the project due.
mrJ's class was as usual, relaxing.
Then was given new assignment.
Off lunch with classmates.
Attended comm class.
Was as usual, hilarious.
Spamming mdmK is fun.
Then talk to mdmK about somethings.
Off to meet abid to accompany him for his lunch.
Then off to AMK hub with him.
Then woodlands.
Dinner with Abid and homed.
:D

Thursday , 21 05 09 :

Major thing for the day AVS. -.- !
mrS's class was ok, i guess.
new exercise for his class.
then off for lunch with my classmates.
attended desfund lecture.
and off homed.
-.- ! Was super tired.
At home chiong colour theory. o.0 !

Friday , 22 05 09 :

Let me elaborate about today, just today's. HAHA. :D

Morning tutorial is fun. Clyda's and her 'Dental Responsibility' HAHA!
Basically tutorial today is just to hand up the last 2 weeks assignments and that's it.
While the rest went for lunch, i stayed with Anban and Abid in the lab as they wants to complete their painting work.
After that pei them to smoke.
Anban soon left to meet his friend.
Me and Abid went for lunch then. :)
Next, attended colour theory module.
New assignment for it. And i'm happy cause my hours of work is accepted. :D
After that, pei best friend to smoke again.
Then went to Mcdonald to meet the rest.
Soon, half of them went home.
So it's left with me, best friend, Jasper dear dear, Chia Hao and Zac.
Here's the most hilarious part of the day.
Jasper dear dear was seriously full of nonsense. HAHA.
Hot fudge Sundae & Strawberry Sundae ( inside joke ).
Idiot, they make me technically will think twice to eat the Sundaes starting from that moment sia.
We seriously corrupted our mind. HAHA! Thanks to Jasper dear dear and his nonsense shit! HAHA. :D
I think this guys are just simply the jokers of my day.
Well, best friend is the joker of my EVERYday. HAHA.
Moved to library after our nonsense crapping session.
Everyone starts to worn out. HAHA.
Zac, CH and Jasper dear dear left for their CCA soon after.
Left me with best friend. Slacked then off home with him.
:D

I'm all done here. HAHA.
Currently, picnik is pissing me off. =.=

A new week.
A new beginning.
A new goal.
A new style of working!

:D !

Insya'allah, this time round it will all work.

So..

I broke down one more time today.
I'm not in the mood seriously.
Everything seems to be spinning real fast for me.
I hate the feelings, therefore i cried and yelled.
Anger overwhelmed me.
No, no, i should say..
A whirlpool of emotions strucked me.
I don't know when this will eventually end, but i'm trying my best to stay strong.
I've told myself i should be on my own speed.
I shouldn't compare myself with the others.
Yes, that's what i should do.

Thanks Abid and Arfian for the cheer-me-up session. I really appreciate that so much.

:D !

Things to clear tomorrow:
- Understand CT exe 3. MUST MUST.

Haiz.

I don't even know where the stress starts.
Is it the day mrJ told me that i've failed my Exe 1?
If that so, i just can't accept failure (which is wrong).
Or is it the day where mrS interfered the smooth sailing journey to the course?
If that is so, i just need to speak up.
But, to who? To mrJ? The mentor of the group?
I don't know.
Maybe, it got nothing to do with school at all?
But deep down in my heart, the word school is highlighted next to the word stress.
So, that makes stress school.
Therefore, it's school that makes me stress.

Yes it's true that things changed in Polytechnics.
Lecturers won't be spoon feeding you when you're learning.
It has the one and only reason -YOU are a YOUNG-ADULT now. So learn to be ADULTS.
Well, it's true. We need to learn to be ADULTS and adapt to the environment.
But, what if the lecturer does not even giving you any spoon to spoon feed yourself?
Don't tell me we're going to get our own spoon.
Cause that's ridiculous.
Spoon are still to be provided. The menus are to be given.
So we will know what is good and what is not.
And, we will eventually spoon feed ourselves.

It might be easy for you to say.
But, i'm the one facing this pain.
I might not be able to say what i had in mind.
At least give me time.
It's the lecturer , there's no 'S' behind so it's only one of them and the assignments that makes me stress.
Maybe, i'm being hard to myself.
But, if i'm not i won't be doing those works and i'm all dead.
I'll just end up probably at the mental institution.
Serious enough?
Haiz.

Boyf,
It is easy for you to go like "Change your course, it's killing you."
But..
Have you ever thought of the consequences behind it?
If i can't get in to the course this year, i have to wait next year.
Waiting is not a problem.
My biggest fear is what if i couldn't defeat this year's O levels students?
That will just make me more stress.

I'm confused.

Life is unfair at times because of the wrong choices we made. And as for me, i've made many wrong choices.
From this to now.

Bestie will know what i mean. What wrong choices i've made.

Why did i even think i could cope before i start?!
Might be thinking highly of myself.
Haiz. Now i regret.
And i'm at the edge of giving up.
It's just 4 weeks and i'm all messed up.
What will 3 years be?
Maybe some will say i'll get use to it and even some will say it'll be okay.
But, see what happened today?
Bestie and boyf will know what happened and what i was given.
4 weeks, in fact just 3 weeks since the class start i've already SERIOUSLY stress and downcast.
First, thanks to relationship(which is probably okay now) and second thanks to mrS.
If this continues, i'll finally just say goodbye and i'll just leave the SIDM.
Probably NYP even.


Relationship seems to be a major stress yesterday.
And school is a major stress everyday.
How could i even run away from stress?
Will a medicine even help?

I was seriously giving up that i told boyf to leave me alone.
I extremely gave up that i told mum ,
"I can't cope. If i can't change my course this year, i'm willing to wait for another year."

-.-

Bestie told me that i need to take things slowly. But, i don't know how. That's the root of everything. I just don't want the bad to happen. Haiz.

Yesterday was the worst day of the week.
Today might not be.

So, another Wednesday uh.
Another FUCK to describe the day.

First, thanks to my sickness. MABUK all the way, especially when i was at AMK with Abid.
Second, thanks to the MRT, bus, and taxis. =.=
Third, thanks to my handphone.
Fourth, thanks to the person who flag and take my taxi away. WHICH she shouldn't do as i was like queing at a TAXI STAND. TAXI STAND MIND YOU!
Fifth, thanks to VAS for making me stress right now. The module is seriously riDOCulous.
Sixth, thanks to AECS4 for not allowing me to download the trial. That was a serious "HELP."
Seventh, thanks relationship. Thanks.
Eight, thanks for thinking wrong about me.
Nineth, thanks to the tears that rolls down.
LASTLY, thanks once again to WEDNESDAY!

But, thanks to Abid for cheering me up. I appreciate that loads friend. Thank you.

7 years uh.
Starting from 11 september.

Hmm, well. 5 years in Singapore and 2 more years overseas (probably Taiwan).
Hesitate at first, but as i discuss with myself at the back of my head -I've decided, you can serve the 7 years of NS. Go ahead and sign on.

7 years might be a little torturing, but boyfriend if it bring you the best please go ahead. I don't mind at all. It might be lonely years, but it's okay. I know you're out there safe and i'm okay. Eventhough the 1 month thailand trip of yours almost kills me, but i manage to survive. So, 7 years will be a little challenging, but for you.. i'll try to survive. A promise. You do your part and i'll do my.

Maybe we won't be seeing each other, but deep inside we are together. Remember our believe -If god want us to be together, we will be together.

So it goes like this...

Sleeping late nights to get assignments done. How wonderful? GG (a term use by my class for dead?) LOL!

Anyway, currently working on my AVS module assignment and it's killing everyone. I swear, when this is done, everyone will have calmness and relax in their mind. At least for a moment. Tomorrow is suppose to be no school day and yet, returning back to school to get some work done. How pack our schedule can be? Adapting this lifestyle real fast.

Was having monday blues as i wasn't feeling well in the morning. I somehow panic certain people. LOL. Arie and Hui Wen especially. I remember in the drawing class.

*Sharpening Charcoal Pencil*

Me: I feel like fainting. -(& i mean it in the conversation. I was seriously dizzy.)
Hui Wen: You want me to tell Mr Jimmy? I tell arh.
Me: NO!!!! Shh. I lazy go make up class.

Idiot right? Make up class equals to extra time, might as well use that time for other assignments which will be stacking up soon. =.= !

*Drawing the shapes*

Me: Mabuk nya. Nak faint.
Arie: You ok? If not i report to jimmy now.
Me: *laughs*
Arie: I'm serious Hidah. I'm not lying.
Me: I'm fiiinneee. Don't worry.
Arie: Keep on say you ok, but you not ok.

LOL! Another darling of mine that ask me "Are you okay?" for like since 9 am in the morning till 3 pm. LOL! :D She was so concern about me. So sweet of you dear. :)

I was seriously mabuk-s (dizzy), aching everywhere, shivering and lost focus. Evidence are..

-I almost left my wallet in the toilet which has more than 100 bucks on it. =.= !
-I tried opening the toilet's store room's door instead of the real toilet door thinking i can leave by that door. =.= !
-I lost focus in jimmy's class. My shading and shapes are super messy today. =.=!
-I didn't speak so much in the morning.
-TOOK PANADOL at my own risk for the first time. =.= !

See that? I'm sick!

The rule of the game now is to...
present your puzzle game to Josef and get it improved.
The rule also states that..
you can either do so next week or now.

So, guess which one i obeyed?
Good job. It is most definitelt the second stated rule. -.- !
Plainly lazy to discuss utmost about anything now. Serious lazy.

Current activity , trading ingredients with CH in restaurant city.
Messaging boyf and facebook-ing. =X !

Waiting for weekend to come and finish all those stacking assignments (which due next week).
Weekend come slowly and ends slowly too.
Bye.

The rule of the game now is to...
present your puzzle game to Josef and get it improved.
The rule also states that..
you can either do so next week or now.

So, guess which one i obeyed?
Good job. It is most definitelt the second stated rule. -.- !
Plainly lazy to discuss utmost about anything now. Serious lazy.

Current activity , trading ingredients with CH in restaurant city.
Messaging boyf and facebook-ing. =X !

Waiting for weekend to come and finish all those stacking assignments (which due next week).
Weekend come slowly and ends slowly too.
Bye.

Bored.

Abid is superly noisy next to me.

BLOGSKIN CHANGED = idk what.
Haha.

Well, today is better than yesterday. It is a HUGE obvious alright?

I was utterly definitely noisy in class that i irritates Anban, Abid, Arie, Candace, Eugene, Zac and Daniel. Sorry love-lies, that will just naturally happen when i'm sleepy. At least, you love-lies gave me your full attention. I love you all. HAHAHA!!

Anyway serious, i find myself to be NOISY in class today. LOL! The only person that's not irritated by me is Shu Wen. Or maybe she's plainly lazy to even get irritated by me. HAHA!

3 hours of VAS is stress enough for everyone. 1 hour of lecture is fast. Lunch with Zac, Eugene, Daniel, Abid, Jasper and Arie after lecture. Then off home with Daniel, Eugene and Arie. While Zac, Jasper and Abid stayed for their audition.

Took bus home today. This also equals to NO MORE MRTs. I loike. :D

Home, read MANGA and now waiting for my sister to come back home from work.
Faster faster, i want to sleep.

Bye faithful readers.

Sad is the only word i can use for right now.
Eh, wait. There's another word -FUCK.

First, my effort went down the drain very fast. All thanks to my careless. I'm all fuck up when he announced that we've done a serious offence. 5% is not reachable. I need to work that 95% now. Haiz. I'll make sure history won't repeat. Serious serious.

Next, thumbdrive spoilt at the very right time. The small item actually cracked? OMG! I went panicky at a moment and start to think about a solution. The easiest solution is to go bankrupt and invest in a NEW thumbdrive. Which is equals to another fuck up.

Lastly, some misunderstanding.

So, what's today? Not-my-day day uh? Well, thanks WEDNESDAY!

DUH!

I've seen the true colours of poly life and how i wish i'm back to secondary school?
It's when i always make myself MC when i haven't do any particular homework as it won't affect my attendace for debarment or deparment or whatever it is!

But poly is like if you don't do it, you better get it done by TONIGHT! Not coming tomorrow.. it will seriously affect your attendance. Below 85%, please retake module.

=.=