Messages.
To my friend.
Clearly, it's not a conflict. Oh sure, that group of people told you how i felt? Indeed. Perhaps, you wasn't being proud to yourself. However, your expressions says it all. Why? Why did you do that? Instead of using some words that can boost my confidence up, you demoralised me? How will you feel if i do that to you? Won't you feel that i'm being proud as i acted that way?
And, i'm clearly not avoiding you. It's you who is trying to show me i'm at fault for not talking. But, look, i have my reasons. So many reasons. And, honestly, this isn't the first time you acted that way. Giving me the face i'm-better-than-you. I'm tired.
Girl, think. Don't you think you're trying to be me? Don't you? Or at least you wanted to be me don't you? Tell me, honestly. Jealous?
Lastly, i'm sorry but i'm not avoiding you and no one is. You decided to hang around with that group and i decided to hang with Li Yan and Shu wen, which i think they are helping me a lot now. I'm much more happier now. It's not that i'm not happy being with you but i just think you don't like my style. Seeing the years, it's rather heartaching. But, seeing you doing what you had done, hurts me more. I apologise.
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To 5B2.
If any of you are reading this, please pass the message to keep yourself FREE on 20th june cause class barbeque will be probably on that day. PLEASE. More information will be post up soon . Thank you. (: PASS MY BLOGGY ADDY TO THE CLASS TOO IF YOU DON'T MIND SO ANYTHING, YOU PEOPLE CAN VISIT MY BLOGGY. THANKS.
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To Boyfriend.
I trust you. I'll try my very best.
I'm just being negative. I don't want myself to get hurt again. I apologise for being very reactive towards that fucking drawing on that fucking wall.
Please erase that irritating, frustrating, hurting, heartaching, ugly, disgusting, freaking, asshol-ing, shitty drawing. PLEASE.
I don't want to lose you or to run away from you. I don't want to share my love.
I want to have you to MYSELF!
Cause, i love you.
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To myself.
FINISH UP YOUR PAINTING!
BYE WORLD.
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
Sunday, May 25, 2008
I've made the stupidest promise ever!
Most of the people will be busy studying for their Mother Tounge O levels while me, out to malaysia attending my uncle's nephew/niece wedding. It's a tiring journey.
That's for today.
Anyway people, it's like so irritating and tempting seeing that pair of beautiful shoe and fabulous handbag on that display window waiting for you to buy it! OMG! It's simply unbearable.
Due to that i pleaded daddy to buy me that white shoe and that purple handy! Oh mine! In the end, daddy bought it for me. That handy was 200 bucks plus plus and that shoe was 30 bucks plus plus. GOSH! That's what happen when my shopping isn't controllable.
And and, i was like so happy that i jump up and down at that handy store. LOL! All the staffs was like looking and smiling. HEHE!
After the shopping trip, i was like telling daddy i need to go takashimaya tomorrow to the art shop to get some art stuffs. Daddy decided to give me the money.
And, i made a stupid promise.
Me: Thank you daddy.
Daddy: Ya welcome. Kiss me.
Me: MUACKSSSSSSSSSS! (gave daddy a real real big smooch)
Daddy: Okay, go taka carefully with the money tomorrow.
Me: Okay daddy! Anyway, i promise i won't shop untill the end of O levels.
Daddy: You said it.
ARGH!!! Stupid stupid stupid. But, who says i can't shop?? I have MONEY! MUAAHAHAHAHA!!
But, i realise now, i have a greatest parents ever. :D ! I thank god for that.
bye world. i'm tired walking with heels around that mall. LOL!
HOO-GA HOO-GA !! I'M HAPPY.
Most of the people will be busy studying for their Mother Tounge O levels while me, out to malaysia attending my uncle's nephew/niece wedding. It's a tiring journey.
That's for today.
Anyway people, it's like so irritating and tempting seeing that pair of beautiful shoe and fabulous handbag on that display window waiting for you to buy it! OMG! It's simply unbearable.
Due to that i pleaded daddy to buy me that white shoe and that purple handy! Oh mine! In the end, daddy bought it for me. That handy was 200 bucks plus plus and that shoe was 30 bucks plus plus. GOSH! That's what happen when my shopping isn't controllable.
And and, i was like so happy that i jump up and down at that handy store. LOL! All the staffs was like looking and smiling. HEHE!
After the shopping trip, i was like telling daddy i need to go takashimaya tomorrow to the art shop to get some art stuffs. Daddy decided to give me the money.
And, i made a stupid promise.
Me: Thank you daddy.
Daddy: Ya welcome. Kiss me.
Me: MUACKSSSSSSSSSS! (gave daddy a real real big smooch)
Daddy: Okay, go taka carefully with the money tomorrow.
Me: Okay daddy! Anyway, i promise i won't shop untill the end of O levels.
Daddy: You said it.
ARGH!!! Stupid stupid stupid. But, who says i can't shop?? I have MONEY! MUAAHAHAHAHA!!
But, i realise now, i have a greatest parents ever. :D ! I thank god for that.
bye world. i'm tired walking with heels around that mall. LOL!
HOO-GA HOO-GA !! I'M HAPPY.
Saturday, May 24, 2008
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
I'm ill.
Didn't attend school today. Had a visit to the clinic early this morning. I was way too sick.
Doctor, told me that my tummy is a bit sore due to yesterday's meal. I shouldn't eat KFC yesterday. SAD! D:
So, altogether, i had 5 medicines to eat. 6 hours daily. Haiz. Doctor says, i'm disallowed to drink milk, cold drinks and eat oily/spicy food. I must really really rest well.
And, today all i did was sleep.
Shall go to school tomorrow and see what happen.
I got to go. BYE!
I THOUGHT YOU WOULD CARE LIKE BEFORE, OUR KISSES ARE DWINDLING TOO.
Didn't attend school today. Had a visit to the clinic early this morning. I was way too sick.
Doctor, told me that my tummy is a bit sore due to yesterday's meal. I shouldn't eat KFC yesterday. SAD! D:
So, altogether, i had 5 medicines to eat. 6 hours daily. Haiz. Doctor says, i'm disallowed to drink milk, cold drinks and eat oily/spicy food. I must really really rest well.
And, today all i did was sleep.
Shall go to school tomorrow and see what happen.
I got to go. BYE!
I THOUGHT YOU WOULD CARE LIKE BEFORE, OUR KISSES ARE DWINDLING TOO.
Sunday, May 18, 2008
It's Sunday.
Yes people, it's Sunday and it's Public Holiday tomorrow. Actually PH means nothing cause i still need to revise. Never mind, as people say, hardwork pay.
Anyway, i think i spend enough this month. Mummy and Daddy is really good to allow me spend that bucks for me, myself. I've bought a new handphone, which cost daddy $450. Daddy bought me a new personal Digital Camera, actually it's for my art too, which cost daddy another $299 and i bought a new school bag, which cost $90. Tell me people how much have i spend? Oh god, i've spend $839 altogether this month! That is why, mummy says, "Grounded from shopping for 2 months."
Please mummy, 2 months from now is my Term 3 examination and there's no time for shopping. LOL!
Okay lah people. I got to go now.
Bye people.
I MISS HUSBAND.
Yes people, it's Sunday and it's Public Holiday tomorrow. Actually PH means nothing cause i still need to revise. Never mind, as people say, hardwork pay.
Anyway, i think i spend enough this month. Mummy and Daddy is really good to allow me spend that bucks for me, myself. I've bought a new handphone, which cost daddy $450. Daddy bought me a new personal Digital Camera, actually it's for my art too, which cost daddy another $299 and i bought a new school bag, which cost $90. Tell me people how much have i spend? Oh god, i've spend $839 altogether this month! That is why, mummy says, "Grounded from shopping for 2 months."
Please mummy, 2 months from now is my Term 3 examination and there's no time for shopping. LOL!
Okay lah people. I got to go now.
Bye people.
I MISS HUSBAND.
Saturday, May 17, 2008
Pardon my english. I saw mistakes yet lazy to correct it.
It's Saturday today.
Woke up at 11 am today. Wash up, eat my breakfast and glued my eyes on to the television. After which, i get bored. Decided to buy myself lunch around 2pm. My lunch today is just a simple Cup Noodle, Chilli Crab. It's delicious. After lunch, did my self-revision for maths. Topic 1 done. Finally, i manage to get a book that really really helps me. After mathematics, it was english. Next, i went to sleep after all those hardwork. Slept for almost like 15 minutes, mum woke me up and here i am now, BLOGGING.
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I sense it. Trying to be me won't make you any happier. Be yourself, improve things that is imperfect for you.
It's Saturday today.
Woke up at 11 am today. Wash up, eat my breakfast and glued my eyes on to the television. After which, i get bored. Decided to buy myself lunch around 2pm. My lunch today is just a simple Cup Noodle, Chilli Crab. It's delicious. After lunch, did my self-revision for maths. Topic 1 done. Finally, i manage to get a book that really really helps me. After mathematics, it was english. Next, i went to sleep after all those hardwork. Slept for almost like 15 minutes, mum woke me up and here i am now, BLOGGING.
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I sense it. Trying to be me won't make you any happier. Be yourself, improve things that is imperfect for you.
Friday, May 16, 2008
Its been another fatiguing week.
What i predict was what happen. Received back my Mathematics Mock Examination paper and Combined Science paper. I scored bad for Mathematics, 41 out of 100. A basic reason to score as bad as that is because i made silly careless mistake for my paper 1. However, Mdm Ho encourages me to do better, thanks to her. She's a nice teacher after all actually. Next, i scored 57.5 round up to be 58 for Combined Science. I passed my Chemistry and i failed my Physics. But after all, i did well, there's space for improvement anyway. Well, as for other subjects, i have not told about my results yet. By predict, i shouldn't be nonchalant.
My Art is going smoothly now. I need sketches. More More More sketches.
The worst part of the week is when i felt so demoralised by a contemptuous imitative action by someone. I didn't expect that was how its going to happen. I'm expecting encouragement instead of showing me the i-won-you face. Counting the years, its very heartaching. However, there's nothing left to do. Everything had happen. I need to just sit and calm down. All i need now is my family.
Boyfriend, he is being unfathomable toward me (that's how i felt). I can't understand him and i bet he couldn't understand me too. I need time to revise, and yet he's forcing me to meet him every day. When i couldn't meet him, its good enough that i called or sometimes he called, his tone of voice is very choleric. I'm used to it, so i will normally keep the angry part of me by myself. If his reading this, i hope he understands. I need time to rest, i need time to be alone sometimes. I'm trying to cope with my studies. All i ask for is, to bear with me for a few more months. I'm asking, NOT BEGGING!
Lastly, i'm all wearied out due to the piles of work and revisions to do at home. I shall begin.
Bye people.
I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
What i predict was what happen. Received back my Mathematics Mock Examination paper and Combined Science paper. I scored bad for Mathematics, 41 out of 100. A basic reason to score as bad as that is because i made silly careless mistake for my paper 1. However, Mdm Ho encourages me to do better, thanks to her. She's a nice teacher after all actually. Next, i scored 57.5 round up to be 58 for Combined Science. I passed my Chemistry and i failed my Physics. But after all, i did well, there's space for improvement anyway. Well, as for other subjects, i have not told about my results yet. By predict, i shouldn't be nonchalant.
My Art is going smoothly now. I need sketches. More More More sketches.
The worst part of the week is when i felt so demoralised by a contemptuous imitative action by someone. I didn't expect that was how its going to happen. I'm expecting encouragement instead of showing me the i-won-you face. Counting the years, its very heartaching. However, there's nothing left to do. Everything had happen. I need to just sit and calm down. All i need now is my family.
Boyfriend, he is being unfathomable toward me (that's how i felt). I can't understand him and i bet he couldn't understand me too. I need time to revise, and yet he's forcing me to meet him every day. When i couldn't meet him, its good enough that i called or sometimes he called, his tone of voice is very choleric. I'm used to it, so i will normally keep the angry part of me by myself. If his reading this, i hope he understands. I need time to rest, i need time to be alone sometimes. I'm trying to cope with my studies. All i ask for is, to bear with me for a few more months. I'm asking, NOT BEGGING!
Lastly, i'm all wearied out due to the piles of work and revisions to do at home. I shall begin.
Bye people.
I HOPE YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN.
Sunday, May 11, 2008
Saturday, May 10, 2008
FUN!
I'm getting my new mobile phone this Monday. :D
Extreme happy. 100% confirm, daddy is buying me a new phone.
Sony Ericsson yes!! :D hehe. I'm damn happy. ENOUGH HIDAH!
Well, today, day started with watching doraemon on Channel 8. Followed by Big Melon Small Durian. After all those random TV dramas, mum and dad was nagging at me asking me to take my bath as they want to go out.
Went to Geylang, TKC to collect my costume and bought 2 more. :D ! Thanks daddy. After which, we went to Clementi Ave 3 for our lunch. Was walking around the central and stop by this handphone shop. AND AND!! Daddy agreed to buy me a new mobile phone. YEAHHHH! Hehe.
Now, i'm back home. :D
I THINK YOU STILL DON'T KNOW I DON'T LIKE THAT.
Friday, May 9, 2008
The week have wearied me.
Having mock examination after school is extremely exhausting. Paper after paper each day. Never mind the dead beat of the timing, but what makes me more dispiriting is that i had a tough war with the papers except for science papers (which was today). Having a tough war with the papers means nothing except for me to START REVISING PROPERLY. The key word is PROPERLY. Well, that's the lesson learnt.
There's nothing more i can type about now. I better get going. Bye people.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUM AND TO THE REST OF THE MUMMY LIVING IN THIS HUMBLE WORLD. :D
Having mock examination after school is extremely exhausting. Paper after paper each day. Never mind the dead beat of the timing, but what makes me more dispiriting is that i had a tough war with the papers except for science papers (which was today). Having a tough war with the papers means nothing except for me to START REVISING PROPERLY. The key word is PROPERLY. Well, that's the lesson learnt.
There's nothing more i can type about now. I better get going. Bye people.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY MUM AND TO THE REST OF THE MUMMY LIVING IN THIS HUMBLE WORLD. :D
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
Monday, May 5, 2008
Saturday, May 3, 2008
TIRED.
Had INTER-CLASS game yesterday. Michelle, Hazel, Hidayu, Shu Wen, Li Ting and myself played very hard. Though, i made mistake here and there but in the end, our team effort and team work, encouragement and etc seriously lead us to prove that we can do our best. All of us were like hugging and jumping of joy! XD .
And today, i attended Hidayu's Party. Quiet a number of us turn up. The party turn out to be something fun. Seriously fun! Games, all the jokes, the laughter everything about the party is fun. XD ! PHOTO TAKING!! :D Seriously enjoyed myself. Hope everyone did. :D
OKAY NOW. ANNOUNCEMENT
1. PICTURES FOR BOTH EVENTS WILL BE PUT UP AS SOON AS I GET ALL THE PICTURES FOR BOTH EVENTS. ;)
2. YEE TING, I WANT THE PICTURES. FAST. LOL!! XD
okay bye world.
ITS WHEN I REALISE YOU'RE MORE THAN MY EVERYTHING.
Had INTER-CLASS game yesterday. Michelle, Hazel, Hidayu, Shu Wen, Li Ting and myself played very hard. Though, i made mistake here and there but in the end, our team effort and team work, encouragement and etc seriously lead us to prove that we can do our best. All of us were like hugging and jumping of joy! XD .
And today, i attended Hidayu's Party. Quiet a number of us turn up. The party turn out to be something fun. Seriously fun! Games, all the jokes, the laughter everything about the party is fun. XD ! PHOTO TAKING!! :D Seriously enjoyed myself. Hope everyone did. :D
OKAY NOW. ANNOUNCEMENT
1. PICTURES FOR BOTH EVENTS WILL BE PUT UP AS SOON AS I GET ALL THE PICTURES FOR BOTH EVENTS. ;)
2. YEE TING, I WANT THE PICTURES. FAST. LOL!! XD
okay bye world.
ITS WHEN I REALISE YOU'RE MORE THAN MY EVERYTHING.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
Blah Blah Blah.
I'm bored.
Seriously.
BLAH BLAH BLAH!
So many question left unexplain.
So many to ask but so little courage.
So many to believe yet so little trust.
So many feeling yet so little happiness.
Why should i be negative?
I'm sick. Sick of behaving this way.
A moment i'm happy another moment i can be down like mad.
Never Mind. I should just let everything be as it is. All i can do is to PRAY that things won't be how i've thought it is. BYE WORLD.
I'm bored.
Seriously.
BLAH BLAH BLAH!
So many question left unexplain.
So many to ask but so little courage.
So many to believe yet so little trust.
So many feeling yet so little happiness.
Why should i be negative?
I'm sick. Sick of behaving this way.
A moment i'm happy another moment i can be down like mad.
Never Mind. I should just let everything be as it is. All i can do is to PRAY that things won't be how i've thought it is. BYE WORLD.
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