I'm exhausted, i bet everyone are. Especially Mr Tan.
An experience to remember, Memories to be kept.

Seriously, boot camp was so much meaningful for me than i thought it would be [though it is somehow tearing me apart].

Staying up super late in school. Complaining about undone sketches [if there's times 2 or there's not]. Being scared whenever Mr Tan's mood turn to be bad bad bad. All the laughter. The teasing. The lunch we had, the dinner we shared. Lastly, of course, THE SLEEPs WE SACRIFICE! Everything, every details, it made the boot camp better than i thought. (: ! Tired but happy[somehow].

Okay Okay, enough of boot camp dramas. (: !

It's over, but still must work as hard as how we did during the camp. (: ! JIA YOU FRIENDs. <3

Mr Tan, thank you for being with us though you're seriously sick. We respect you and appreciate you.












LET'S CONTINUE WORKING HARDER!

The second last day of boot camp.

I just realise that i need more more sketching. Hence, i've been a very guai girl and start a proper research and proper sketches. (: ! Though, there's still some insufficient pictures (which i'm currently seraching for).

Today's boot camp was okay. Tired and worn out but all of us still managed to make sure each one of us, take power naps for only 10 minutes and get back to work. (: ! Hence, it's kind off good for me as i can see i produce something at the end of the day. It's worth my every effort.

We ended boot camp at around 8.30 pm. That was rather fast, i suppose. Well, after boot camp, met boyfriend. He was seriously very very good to me tonight (it's not that he wasn't good to me before). HAAH! I was damn happy. He bought me a VANILLA ICE BLENDED from coffee bean. COFFEE BEAN! I've been craving for it. He bought me dinner too, as i was so noisy and blur cause i was hungry. (: !

And i'm home around 10. (: !

Bye world.

THOUGH I'M TIRED, I DIDN'T GIVE UP.

When everyone is sleeping, i'm awake and keep on drawing.

Yes, i'm working late at night. I need time off, so i decided to blog.

Vanilla ice blended is still not in my hand. I'm so desperate!

I need a watch. Cause i spoilt my watch. I think i should get the 40 bucks watch? Cheap and affordable (; ! LOL!

Sleepy. I need sleep at this hour. ): !

Sweets, i need them to safe me from Art Camp tomorrow. MUST BUY!

Tuition, i want to cancel them all for this week's but... FAT HOPE! ):

Boyfriend, seriously, i sense your appearance here. (: !

Saturday study dates, AWESOME! (: Learn something and had fun. NEOPRINTS taken (; !

Last Friday, LOVELY DAY! (: ! [Pictures will do the talk].

Lastly, getting back to work. BYE WORLD ! (: (:

Was reading Michelle's blog and i found this name thingy, and i tried. Here's the result. (:

What Norhidah Ahmad Dan Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals. You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life. You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you. At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing. You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long. You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are confident, self assured, and capable. You are not easily intimidated. You master any and all skills easily. You don't have to work hard for what you want. You make your life out to be exactly how you want it. And you'll knock down anyone who gets in your way!

What's" Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Today, i felt like slapping myself to betray Mr Tan's trust on me for the art coursework. I purposely skip lessons and etc. I continue doing this untill today's afternoon, when he knew that i attended school and required me to see him. I went to see him, and the way he speaks to me just makes me want to tell him the truth which i did, and in the end, i realise i've been selfish towards him. He wanted to help, and i ran away. That isn't suppose to be the way. So, i promise, this won't happen again. (; !

It's like fuck can? Everything seems to be like oh my god! I know i will explode, but at the right time with the right evidence. ASS!

Coffee bean vanilla ice blended still isn't in my hand yet. ): ! I will get it next week, i will. (: !

I think i should go now. (; BYE!


PS: I think, boyfriend's daddy is cool. (: !















I THINK WE OVER DO IT, THAT WE LAUGH AT THE END OF IT.

Perhaps, i think it's human's nature.

People could be this close to you this moment and with one action you made, will make them seems to be very very far from you. The real fact is that you never meant to run away from them. Anger, that's what they potray. And you? Searching for the real reason why and in the end, you gave up and decide to be with yourself and your next closest friend. Also, the fact is, you're never alone cause you have people that loves you ;family, friends, boyfriend/girlfriend and a close friend whom hold a same character as you (which makes it double the fun and comfort). (: !

I'm not referring to anyone, but if you think it hitted you, i'm sorry. No offence readers. *

I've totally destroyed my T3 examinations. I failed maths and science so far. My points will be totally above 20. Means, sorry, byebye barbeque. ):

Hating don't know whatever camp! It's irritating! It sucks! And it's a waste of time somehow. How i wish i didn't take art as an elective subject, i shouldn't. ARGH!

COFFEE BEAN VANILLA ICE BLENDED, i'm craving for that. I'm dying for that. I'm falling for that. I'm crying because of that. A bit to dramatic, but i will get a VANILLA ICE BLENDED from coffee bean real soon. A promise to MYSELF!

Saturday is filled up with study date with 2 of my classmate. I'm really looking forward for it to seriously improve my maths score. Thanks guys for the offer to help. I appreciate it.

Lastly, there's actually more to update but i can't update it all now. It's impossible. I need to go.

Goodnight and Goodbye world. (: !
















I'LL PLAY THE CURRENT WITH YOU.

Hello people.

Today i didn't attend my religious class, for a reason. (:

So, in the morning, i followed my parents to the market and brought back home breakfast. Ate breakfast and off to wash daddy's bike. (: ! I was super good can today? I didn't ask daddy for money (which i usually do when i wash his bike). LOL! It took both me and my maid around a hour to complete washing daddy's bike.

After washing daddy's bike, went home and watch two korean movie ;See you after school and S diary. Both are nice to watch. (: ! So, after that played game. After one hour of computer game, went to continue watching another korean movie ;200 pounds beauty. Which i manage to watch halfway only cause mummy wanted to go to my nephew's birthday party, which makes him 3 years old. Cute one. (: ! So went to his place and sang the birthday song and he was smiling ear to ear when my all of relatives clapped loudly for him. (: ! Super cute. Hee. Wasn't long at his place though cause daddy wanted to go off to IMM.

So, after the party we went off to the IMM. Took like hours at that place for something then went dinner and i ended my day there. Kinda boring but, worth it, cause a day spent with my family is the day i should treasure. (: !













IF ONLY.

I hate today.

Firstly, i'm not feeling well.

Well, today's paper was okay. It wasn't really hard except for the disposal thingy. So, i guess, i can make it for POA then. However, other subjects? I'm afraid.

I don't wish to talk about what happened after papers today.

There's no more i can talk about. I think i'm off. Bye world.













I KEPT QUIET BECAUSE I'M AFRAID I WILL WALK AWAY, LEAVING YOU ALONE THERE.

I NEED AIR TO BREATH.


















































FUCK LAHH!

Telah ku cuba menghindari.

There's no school today. However, it's just another chaotic day. My today is a failed to plan day. How couldn't it be? Travelling from this place, to that place, back to this place then to another place then back to that place. Oh my! Bus trips all the way.

I didn't really sleep yesterday. After confessing things to boyfriend, it makes me cry the whole night. I was just breathless by the guilt i was wrapped in. It's like as though a bullet penetrate into my heart, painful. How could i be so selfish? I hate myself for everything i did to boyfriend. But, some say, why should i as he did the same before? I answer that question myself, "Cause he's the one, who have been constantly telling me to be patience and believe that this relationship will be somewhere together with happiness. Cause he's the one, who have been continuingly supporting me. Cause he's the one, that my friends know. Cause i he's the one, that i once promise to give him another chance." All i wanted is god to let my parents see, who he really is to me. And for him to see who is the one i really love between the two.

I think, i've typed enough. I shall go now. Bye world.













TILL TONIGHT, I COULDN'T FORGET HOW SHE TOLD ME THAT SHE DON'T FAVOUR YOU. I FELT A KNIFE PENETRATING MY HEART INSTANTLY.

Firstly, i should make it clear to myself that losing the first battle doesn't mean i'll lose the consecutive battles. Hence, i need to put myself on trainings, much tougher trainings. My weapons will be... those TEN YEARS SERIES shelved on that cupboard. Yes Hidah, you can! Go for it. (:

Okay, well the week have been tough. With Term 3 examinations filling my everyday. I slept for 4 hours per day, could you imagine how sleepy i am? But strange, i still look hyper. Well, that's the wonderful side of a cheerful young lady. However, i still think i need to unwind myself from those stress and daunting days. Erm, but unwinding myself now is like no use, cause stress will approach me again real soon. So i guess, the real real time to unwind myself is AFTER O LEVELS.

Tuitions, piles of work is waiting for some make over. LOL! I have to spend my weekends to finish all tuition's work especially Frederick's. It's like lots of things to do for english. But, i have to force myself instead of complaining cause ultimately it bring good to me. (: ! Hmm.

Tonight, i'm taking a day off. Can i? I think i should cause i've tired my mind out and i shouldn't do any real thinking for today. Cause i have to use my mind tomorrow. Hmm.

Kay lah, i better get going. Bye people.












I FELT GUILTY TO SAY THOSE WORDS TO HER CAUSE I KNOW IT WILL HURT YOU.

Hola readers.

I've not been updating, basically cause i've been busy with studies. Well, deciding to have a little break, here i am updating my blog for the sake of it. (:

First of all, finally my sketches is progressing with what Mr Tan required. Speaking of it, i just read Joey's recent entry, stating that we need to sketch altogether 70 pieces in 23 days plus a real nicely done canvas. Frankly, i believe that's sucks. HAIZ. Perhaps, i had make a tremedous mistake by choosing art to be my 7th subject. I should think harder back then. Never mind, it's too late anyway. Just endure, and it'll be over. Yeah.

My tuitions is keeping me pack with revisions and additional homework. This just means i'll be in my room revising every chapter i had to for T3 examinations plus finishing up my tuition's homework. Lucky enough, both of my tuition teacher (at least one of them) is friendly and understanding. I should thank god for that. So, having tuition isn't bad at all, instead it is helping me really a lot. (: !

Okay, let's keep academic a side for a moment. (:

Randomly, life have been stress and i'm coping somehow. Though at times, i will scream and yell, cry and cry, but still i know i'm coping with the time. (: ! With my parents, my siblings and my boyfriend behind me supporting everything i do, i will try my very best to cope in anything i do. Truely, i do have a supportive family and boyfriend. Again, i thank god for that.

Went down to Far East with a friend last Friday. Lots of clothing is calling me to get them, but i couldn't. First, i'm broke. Second, i couldn't see why i should need it now when i will spend most of my time at home. Lastly, i need to control on my expenses. Well, i'm lucky enough, my friend is there to keep on saying "No! Cannot buy!" when i say, "Nice lorr! I want. Can? HAHA! It's good to see a friend helping you out this way. (: !

Haah. I think i bullied Bing Hui. Pestering him to get me the ITSY BITSY SPIDER lyrics, and he keeps on forgetting to get it. Last Friday, i asked him, "Kor, where's my lyrics?" Again, he forgotten. He said, "Go buy the CD lahh." I went like, "You buy for me lah. Since you've said it." HAHA! After school messaged him, reminding him to get me the CD or the lyrics, and he said OKAY. Like as if! HAHA! (: !

Kay lah readers, i think i've update enough nonsense. HAAH. Goodnight and Goodbye. (:






I BELIEVE I WILL AND THEREFORE I AM.

It's the second day of the week and i realise there's a lot that i hate.

I hate my Art Coursework. (EXTREMELY).
I hate it to realise the stress i am in now.
I hate it when someone makes me fight and scream vulgars.
I hate it that life having too much to think about.
I hate it the fact that i don't have a running shoe.
I hate it that i had no best friend now. (EXCEPT THAT I HAD MEI & JIE -Shu Wen&Li Yan)
I hate it when girls stares at boyfriend.
I hate it when boyfriend reacts like "Hey i know that girl."
I hate it when my prepaid is going low.
I hate it to bring my thermometer and handbook for stupid checking.
I hate it when i dropped my handphone today.
I hate it when it is Wednesday & Thursday.
I hate it that i need to realise all this hates i have in me, in fact, i know there's more.

Haiz. I'm disoriented. I'm bored. ARGH!










No one will know the secret agony of my soul, not even you.