Yup, i'm early.

Everyone that saw me online was surprise to why was i so early. HAH!

Nah, nothing serious.

Just that i've received the JAE result exactly at 6.07 am. And i was kinda surprised for the course i'm posted to. I'm not really 100% upset though. I'm 40% upset. :D

So, in case you want to know. I'm posted to digital media design (games) at Nanyang Polytechnic. I immediately wake up and on the laptop to check out the course i'm posted to one more time. I think it's not that bad bah. It's kinda interesting. (: ! So there's nothing i should be worried about. All i need to do is JIA YOU. Haha :D


That's it. I'm catching my sleep back. HAHA! :D




PS: I'm not sad. Don't worry Fawwaz. :D

I have been wondering over and over again.

I've been asking non stop.

"When will i ever feel a real feeling of having a real best friend? Where, i can just dial her/him number she/he will make time for me and when she/he just dial my number, i'll make time for her/him too. When will i ever understand the meaning of crying for true friends? When will i ever get to explain my thoughts and having my best friend crying together with me? WHEN?"

Yup, i hate to say. However i think, i'm all damaged in heart. Nothing was appreciated. It's okay.


Anyway, without one, i can still live happy. :D HAA!


Currently, exhausted. Just came back from work. (:


:D I saw a guy that looks like Dean Fujioka. I'm super happy. He's nice. Funny though!

Today i met a super irritating customer. Keep on coming back to PH counter and try this particular bag, which at the end of the day.... BOUGHT NOTHING from PH!

That's it. Bye.

How could i ever be as strong as you when i am the one that face this obstacle most of the time?
How could i ever run without getting tired when i don't feel any sense of winning?
Why is this happening?

I'm dead inside.

Hello. I was like upper sian.



I messaged my in-charge early this morning. It's to inform her that i won't be able to attend work as i need to accompany my mum to settle some matters (regarding my new maid). She officially said okay. I'm leaving the house real soon.



Next, i was like helping my sister with the digital camera. You know, she took a couple of photos with my camera so, it's like she wants to upload those pictures. Therfore, i was teaching her and helping her out. Before uploading, i decided to clear/delete certain photos in my camera. Hence, i found a bunch of irritating photos that cost me a bomb but in the end, do nothing good. Obviously, it's those fuck up art photos. Immediately, anger was rising in me. Nope, i'm not angry at the 'absent' word stated on my result slip for this subject. Neither am i angry with myself. I'm angry at the ridiculous time and money i spent on the subject and ignored other much more important subject. I should've done better for my maths and science if i didn't put my heart and soul on the art piece. First of all, i shouldn't choose art as my elective subject, i should have just chosen something theorically. BLAH! It's over. Anyway, giving up my art was a thing i did for my others subject. As a result, i manage to score for all my other subjects. I'm happy with my result. :D ! To end, those art photos are all deleted. So, it won't pop out anymore.



Tomorrow i'll be in the morning shift. I will attend work tomorrow as there's no important matters to attend to. So, i'll be there. Don't worry Hazel. Heh.



Since i'm not working today, i thought i might as well do things that i should have done but i have not. I'll do all this matters as soon as i finished accompanying my mum. :D



Things to do today:

• Return the library book i borrowed and pay the overdued debts.


• Return OG's scan card and tag -to retrieve my 10 bucks.


• Go and buy a facial mask. (if possible)


• Help mum buy her top up card and mine. (not that important)

That's it. :D

I'm so devastate by the definition of best friends. Though Brian tried to make me hold on, but i still believe that best friends doesn't exist. Even if it does, i need someone to prove it to me. Who will? I don't care any longer. Since believing in best friend have depredated me, why should i continue believing in it? So, it's off my dictionary.

Anway, this Brian i'm talking about is my friend from phillipines. :D

I think i better get going lah. I'll definitely be late if i don't get ready now. Bye.



Thanks once again Hazel for letting me to accompany my mum to settle some urgent matters.







PS: Boyfriend, what if i can't get that sim card?

Finally, i feel more fresh for my blog. HAHA!

Anyway, being given the afternoon shift all the way, it's been hard for me to update my blog for the past few days/weeks. As for today, i was changing the colour of my blog's background and getting my blog a new fresh tagboard, i dedided why not update it with a new post as well? haah!

So here i am.

I've got my pay for the last month. Which is kinda pathetic as i only paid for 2 days of salary. Duh? =.=' But at least, i do have my first salary and my pay slip. HAHA! I've happily spent my salary by buying 1 boyfriend tee and 1 casual dress. I think i'm going to spend more next month. HAH! Kidding.

I want to buy that shoes that everyone is using. I want to buy that bag that everyone is wearing. I want to buy that bodyshop foundation that someone recommended to me. I want to buy that flops that i've been wanting for so long. I want to buy that DKNY handbag that been waiting for me. I want to buy that spectacles that i saw at queensway. I want to buy that... I want to buy that...

The list won't just stop. I have more to go people. I mean it. Big spender, that's me. I seriously need to control myself. Duh! Haiz, but i can't hold it, there's just like so many to buy. Just what will be able to make me think twice about my expenses. I need to think of a way!

I want to sleep. I'm super tired. :D Bye world.

To Hidayu:
It's okay. There's no need for you to apologise. Thanks anyway.

So, work is getting kinda irritating for me due to the partners i had. Yesterday was horrible, today was semi-horrible. Brrr.

Okay, enough speaking about work.

Monday is the moment of truth. My heart is pumping wilder and wilder. I don't know how i will drag my leg into the newly build school's hall, and wait for the release of the result as calm as i could, repeating "I know i can. I've done my best." Speaking about Monday, i'm feeling butterflies in my tummy. God knows how i feel. Oh, please!

I think i better go. Bye.

Wearing my uniform is like a routine now. Pathetic kinda fashion, but nice. Haha!

Work is getting better so far. Tired is an of course, but as the day pass, i'm used to it. It's a fun job. :D I made new friends. Nice people.

Life was good, i swear. Just that there's a pathetic "angel" that's trying very hard to destroy my day by posting lame and fucking childish tags. I mean, if you dare to tag all those words, why aren't daring enough to put your name? Right? Anyway, as you say it, forget it. Push yourself away from it, and i swear we both will live happily ever after.

And, recently i found a letter in my wardrobe. It's from a friend, when i was around 14 years old. It was how she express herself to me, all about her problems. I realise the pained she went through one more time, but it's over. I remembered how i cried when she called me and tell me that she's not feeling well and need money to go for some check up. I recalled how i begged my parents to help her, but in the end, nothing seems to be better now? She had stopped messaging me, she had stopped asking me out, she had even stopped MSN-ing me. Perhaps, she had a much better friend, a better friend that she can call her bestest friend. I just have to let it be as how it is. In my life, i never get the real feeling of a real best friend. It's okay. Without one i still can survive. For now, i think the closest friend i have is the 3 girls, LY, LT and SW. Thanks girls.

Okay, i'm starting to hate this pathetic girl at work. It's like i tried to be friend with her, and she gave me this non-chalant attitude. Not a smile, not a word, not even a pleasant stare. Her eyes were always staring at me like as if there's something in me that makes her hate me so much. Annoying. It's okay, being a happy go lucky girl, i ignored her and continue with my work. :D Haha!

Lastly, results is like real soon. Whirlpool of emotions is strucking me. Praying hard for the better. :D

I think, i've said enough.

To passer-by:
Sorry, but being fat is not a problem for me. :)

A brand new year :)

HELLO 2009!!

If you were to ask me what's mine wish for 2009,
I will answer, "I wish my wishes i've made before come true."

If you were to ask me what i want to do in 2009,
I will answer, "I want to do something more worth than playing and slacking."

If you were to ask me what i want to be in 2009,
I will answer, "I want to be someone better than who i am in 2008."

If you were to ask me what's new in 2009,
I will answer, "Everything's new. From me to you, to them to everybody."


:D .

To Family,
I love you. The support is the one i appreciate the most from all of you. Thank you for trusting me once again.

To Boyfriend,
A year had past. Now, we are heading to a new fresh year. Be prepared, there's more to come. I love you bao bei.

To CTSS-mates,
HAHA. Something huuuggggeee is coming. O levels results, wish you all the best. :)

To Friends,
You're all remembered and the friendship made are treasured.

To Teachers,
Thanks for making my 2008 a smooth sailing journey and made me face the challenge with no big fear. :D

To Myself,
Make everything you wish for a wish come true. :)