Hello there world.

Okay. It was rather weird today cause anger was filling me through out the day. I don't know the reason. Let's put this aside.

Anyway, i was 'spring' cleaning my cupboard when i found a bunch of letters. You know those friendship letters, poetries and even letters that were supposed to be send but didn't. Well, everything seems to bring back memories to me. The words in those letters were hilarious. It's like you're hit by moments of memories. Haah!

I read almost every single letter and a few made me cry, cause the letters brought me back to hurtful memories of the relationship. At the same time, it makes me wonder what makes me hold on despite of those hurtful things? Those incidents are still crystal clear in my mind. Those words are still playing in my mind. Everything, every scene and every expression returns when i read those letters. It's hurtful. Absolutely hurtful.

Well, some letters makes me laugh. Example are letters that wrote by my friends and me when we were like primary 6? And that was 5 years ago. Exactly, the words in those letters just reminds me of how childish i was during that time. ha! I was even talking love! Haah! That's just funny. Remember those days when we will bring along a 'diary' to school and requires our fellow classmates/friends to write their so called data's in that diary? Hah! I do remember that, but i lost those diaries. I had 2 of those. We will compete seeing who's desing will be the most nice one. It's just fun being in primary 6, when you thought you are all grown up but actually you're still a little kiddo in need of his or her parents. Haa! That's the reality.

The letters were really the main subject for my day today. I mean it really makes me recall my young days and my now days. Haah! When i was a kid, i had always wanted to grow faster and be like the teenagers around me and now, when i am a teenager myself, in fact a young adult i am, i prefer to be little kids where they know nothing. All they know was homework, friends, obey adults, sleep, eat, cartoons and games. Isn't that more fun then being an young adult? When you have to know every single thing in this world and you have to learn to solve every problems on your own. Facing every obstacles on yourself. It's not easy being a young adult.

You kids out there, treasure being a kid. Don't pretend to being us cause being us is no fun at all. There's a lot of thinking to do. Seriously. (: ! And let me tell you those thinking aren't easy to do. I bet the others will agree with me. (:

Okay, put those aside okay?! Now let get back to me spring cleaning my cupboard.

Besides those letters, i also found that i have lots of handbags that i yet to use. No wonder mum will nag at me when ever i decide to buy a new handbag! Haa! I get it now, but.. who cares? More bags is coming, hah! So, mum don't waste your time nagging at me. Ha! Afterall, i'm a lady. I need bags to be more presentable. Different kind of bags that suits my attire. Ha! I get it now, i'm getting more fussy in fashion. Is that a good or a bad sign? Suggestion.

Oh, speaking of fashion. I need to do a make over soon. Getting rid of those old fashion baju-s and start buying more 'me' baju-s. I mean, clothes that suits me and really present my personality, but first i need to make sure that my graduation day's clothes are ready before hand. Yes, i've known what to buy but i'm afraid my mind will change the moment i step in to the mall. Well, we'll see about that. I can't wait for that day. Can you?

I'm buying more shoes too. Oh, earrings, necklaces, bangles... watches. Err, i think there goes my one month salary. Hah!

Yeah. You're right. I'm planning to work after Os. To be precise, after the class chalet. I will be starting to find myself a job and get money. Planning to work with cousin, but we are still thinking where will we be working at. Hmm, planning planning. If his not up to it, i have to work alone i guess. Or with friends? Who? Not to think about it now.

Tuesday is coming. The day that will end every pressure. I'm waiting for it. MCQ! I will do very best for it and enjoy like mad after that. Parties, BBQs, chalets, lepaks and more! Yes right after the MCQ! (:

I'm done. I better get some sleep. Bye world.