Currently in school, just ended my Game Concept Project (GCP). Waiting for dad now.
Alone.

Today i had a rough day. A very veyr rough day.
Cried like nobody's business today.
I cried eveyrthing out to Bestea (Abid) and also Arie Dear.
It all happen after i received a message from SW.
His message is fucking irritating -Frankly.
Thinking of it just makes me wanna cry out loud again.
Then after that, another incoming call from SY.
After that, another message from CTMY.
I just dont know why i felt that the questions is making me super frustrated and disappointed.
It's like there's a 20kg stone on top of my head.
I mean, my head was freaking heavy all the way today that i couldn't really concentrate on my work.
Is this the way he fullfill his promise?
Why can't he understand?!
Call me anything you want people, anything.
Selfish? Self-centered? Annoying? Ungrateful?
But ultimately, i'm suffering.
Does you people knows that?
DO YOU?!
You think asking him a break up is making me happy?!
Oh, you're wrong people.
If he thinks he have to start adapting a life without me? So am i.
I have to adapt a life without him.
Blame me?!
My fault.
Oh well. If that's what make you people happy, then let it be.
Whatever the reasons you people have for the break up, it's your own interpretation!
Okay?! Cause only me knows the real reason to it.
ONLY ME!
Hey, hello. It's not easy being me.
Who is pleasing EVERYONE ELSE AND FORGETS TO PLEASE MYSELF?!
No, not blaming him.
But just tell me, is it fair?!
Is it fair for me??? IS IT?! TELL ME NOW?!
I please my parents -by telling lies to him.
I please him -by telling lies to my parents.
So who's pleasing me?
Hey you think it's fun swimming in a pool of lies? YOU THINK SO?!
Ya, weak -Maybe that's the right word.
But the battlefield has to end.
Enough is enough for me.
So people, i think it's enough.
Being me was never easy. OKAY?!
Thanks. Im sorry.