WHO IS SHE ANYWAY?

Do i need to say it all out again? I am utterly depressed and dont know what i am feeling now. Hate her? Angry at her? Or simply don't want to see her?! Whatever i don't wish to talk it here. Today i went in my house with my eyes "closed" pretending i don't see anything happening. Don't want see her, don't want see what she do. WHATEVER! HIDAH, you're individually a someone, let her do whatever she wants to do. Simply don't bother anything about her. Let what she want to do. She don't respect you, let her be. Know and understand what you do, it's okay.

LETS CUT THE BLOODY CRAP ABOUT HER! I AM ALREADY TURNING LIKE ONE BLOODY MUTED STONE AT HOME. SO THERE'S NO USE.

Anyway, school today was okay. Had english for the first period, did the proposal thingy. Than chem, mr murali wasn't in school so it's like free period? XD ! Next, it was PE. Played captain's ball like mad man today. It's the best game afterall. XD ! Malay, only me and ah gong play. So, the both of us is like, dehydrated untill now? HAHA! We fast mahh. Anyway, after PE was recess, accompanied bing hui kor to the sick bay because he fall down mahh. Than, it was mother tounge. Slept during the lesson, was super tired. Than it was SS, there's no SS were doing the NE quiz, and it's like mine is only JUNIOR BUILDER. Oh my god!! Hehe. XD XD!!After that, it was CE. Did about sex thingy again. Haiyo! But halfway through the lesson, i dash out of the class like mad, i think i ran the fastest speed i ever did lorr. HAHA! XD !! It was because i left my watch at the com lab 2!! MY 200 over dollars watch! OH SHIT! Lucky, i manage to get the room key from the office and manage to get my watch.

After school, thought of going to jurong west to buy myself what i want to drink. But disappointedly, mum says no. So did dad. I obeyed. But deep down, i wonder, why couldnt i get what i want to drink even with my own money?? It's just a simple drink you know? Yet i couldnt get it. I HATE THIS I HATE THIS! Argh! Calm down hidah. You may cry if you want to.

IF ONLY THEY KNOW HOW I FELT. I THINK I'VE DONE SO MUCH TO MAKE THEM HAPPY YET ALL I GET IS LIKE GOOD FOR NOTHING RESULTS. BEING ME WASN'T EASY. GOOD, I GET NOTHING. BAD, I GET SCOLDINGS AND ETC. BULLSHIT!! BULLSHIT!!

IMAGINE, WHO SHE IS? I DON'T NEED HER MESSAGES TO REMIND ME NOT TO BE BACK HOME LATE. I DON'T NEED ANY SYMPATHY FROM HER. WHO IS SHE? SHE DOESN'T KNOW THE MAIN REASON. IT WAS HER ALL ALONG THAT MAKES ME STAY AWAY.

I WANT TO RUN AWAY FAR AWAY FROM ALL THIS UNEXPLAINED THOUGHTS IN ME. MY HEAD IS ACHING, MY HEART IS PAINFUL. ARRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!