You told me you want to know the truth.
You say i wish you to leave.
Please, my feelings are telling me i'm tired.
Tired of everything.
I don't know if having you leaving me is the best choice.
Decision is still the hardest thing to do .
Do understand how i feel now?
It's not that i want you to shed and drown yourself in blood.
I'm not asking you to die.
No, never!
Get it? So blood is really out of the issue.
Don't use that as a reason to make me into a believer.
If you want blood, i'll give you blood too.
Darling,
You're not leaving, perhaps.
But i withdraw myself from the war.
I love him, i love him so much.
I don't want to lose him now.
He's my everything.
My father is my heart and soul.
I can't let him go.
He cried because of me, once.
And that's enough, i told myself.
It's a painful experienced for me to see him crying and begging me.
I admit defeat.
I know, coward ;that's the exact word for me.
Say anything you want to say.
I will swallow even it hurts my throat and kills my heart.
Can't you see that i want you to be happy?
I'm sure you will, if you are willing to try.
Baby dear,
I'm weaker than you thought i am.
Here,
I will say ; I love you, but i love him more.
He's fear of the history is worst than the fear i had.
So baby,
Please don't make him die because of this.
He's ill, he's no longer strong to defeat you.
I beg you.
Please get the reason right!


I'm just as rotten as a vegetable when i'm alone.